Thursday, March 26, 2009
The Father Time really Passes like its rushing to send this year off swiftly
and yet the time of the year whereby i grew a fair bit older
my humble 23rd
time reall flies
and sometimes before u catch ur breathe, u are already swept off to aging yet another year
At times like that i would usually sit back and thought about stuff happening the year before and i was thinking that there are things i felt bad about and things that im thankful about
sometimes i thought that my straight forwardness actually hurts ppl around me
but i seriously didnt mean harm when i said those things
i just thought the best out of them
because i do care therefore i do not want to see them soo tired out or hurt..
theres alot of things i want to improve:
things like to learn to spend more time with friends
things like to fulfill what i could within the family
things like to express myself more to people whom i do feel for
things like to always always always learn to appreciate and hold on to that thankfulness and be modest about it
theres many things i regretted and felt sorry about
especially this particular day
ive thought thru alot on myself
ive reflected
ive pondered and ive asked myself lots of questions
theres alot of things i couldnt undo
or try to redo them
but the only things i could do is to hold those gratitude
and live on to improve myself better
having said all that
Happy birthday to me
and i wishes nothing but good health wrapped around all the loved ones
"Autumn came forcefully and left,
promising its return the very next year"
it will only get better for all of us
the sight would perhaps be the same
but the whole meaning and having to experience it another time
would be different
have faith in better times as i always held on that I have the time, of my life
26.3.09
Monday, March 23, 2009 23.3.09
Thursday, March 12, 2009 12.3.09
Friday, March 06, 2009 6.3.09
6.3.09
6.3.09
Monday, March 02, 2009 2.3.09
23th March
11.24pm
ive got an unexpected mail in my inbox
Mercury M&C
thank god for the late reply
and it came at the right time
good things are worth the wait
im waiting for the interview
and hopefully by then
i would get a chance to do the very first event which is the Audi Fashion Festival 2009
this is my best bday present
God keep blessing me
13 more days to sweet surrenders
and and
15 more days to the 23rd bday
time seriously flies
and i wish it would go faster
for this whole year to go by before i came to realise it
BECAUSE i wana end school days
to be exact its 9 months 20 days
to the whole end of 2009
so everyday i will count down till its finally over
mum says the year end would be to destination Nippon
HOPEFULLY!!!!!!!!!!!
alright everything is rather the norms nothing much i wana say or jot down
" one day we will all know that simple stuff only begans when we stop asking "
the state of mind is telling me that i have nothing much to do about it
or go about trying to make do about it
reality just nudge me back time and again
the avoided at the back of my mind is just temporary
i still couldnt ignore and become ignornant of what is before me
not that its not worth it
perhaps i dont have confidences in myself or would i think that highly of myself that it would
iron out
the next time round it would sit in better my love
for now just for now
im letting this whole thing go unsound....
jed mak jed mak
the state of mind is telling me that i have nothing much to do about it
or go about trying to make do about it
reality just nudge me back time and again
the avoided at the back of my mind is just temporary
i still couldnt ignore and become ignornant of what is before me
not that its not worth it
perhaps i dont have confidences in myself or would i think that highly of myself that it would
iron out
the next time round it would sit in better my love
for now just for now
im letting this whole thing go unsound....
jed mak jed mak
the state of mind is telling me that i have nothing much to do about it
or go about trying to make do about it
reality just nudge me back time and again
the avoided at the back of my mind is just temporary
i still couldnt ignore and become ignornant of what is before me
not that its not worth it
perhaps i dont have confidences in myself or would i think that highly of myself that it would
iron out
the next time round it would sit in better my love
for now just for now
im letting this whole thing go unsound....
jed mak jed mak
Ive decided to leave a good space to many things whether is it people/issues
Im giving the upcoming trip a miss
I just felt strongly on going by relishing some of the stuff ive contemplate..
and i seriously hope some would be made real..
Not that going overseas with the clan is not a good idea
but perhaps i just felt that i should try to at least keep according to what ive planned on a bigger picture
and im just merely trying to safe guide it as per it is..
on another note
ive decided to " not go with the flow " by residing on the opposite side
i dont know if this whole thing is afterall gona work but i dont really want to mould it to look like it should rightfully happen
im good without the change of status..