Friday, November 30, 2007

Its yet again friday..
how time really pass when you are busy busy busy..
but oh well its good..
lately it seems that i have been hit by the sleep bug...
Im soo tired and even with short naps i just dont seem to get enough of them...
I need alot more sleeping time..
which i dont think i can desire for anytime soon...
Stuff is still very much in hand..
this module is really choking me..
Lots of unfinished goings..
Like the Xmas compeition on sat..
Fash Bash on the 15th dec..
1 final exams..
3 major projects..
And then what, do spreads for catologue magazine...
how can i breathe....

But Im content as per what i have right now..really..
I dont ask for more...

Was talking to friends today how i miss a certain kind of feeling...
but im just soo not seeing myself in any kind of that situation anytime soon...

Maybe one just gets too tired to even have the courage to go a one step closer...
Maybe one is too numb to talk themselves out of giving it another go..
Maybe... In time one will always at the end brush that issue aside...
Maybe...

Hows the whole rehearsals gona be later...I really have no idea..
but i hope i just wont freak out and try to make this whole experience a pleasant one..

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Everyone is gg away..
Jetting off somewhere..
Argh! my sweet surrenders for holis in a few weeks time..
my sweet surrenders for HK in a months plus time...
time just fast forward..

Anyway to the loves...whose going away..have great fun..
filter whatever when u are out of town..leave it there..
and come back to the arms of us
with a whole empty refreshed mind to reload a better set of memories..
=)
Huggies!

30.11.07

Monday, November 26, 2007

So next time when u are asked to write feedback or comment maybe this might help..
Its monday...hope it somehow brightens up your week ahead...





Nothing much to say.. still the same old stuff soo ya shant ratter on..
Gona have a busy week..
Will tell u guys about the upcoming styling thingy soon..
with photos of cause..

clicking out and have a gd week love..


Happiness= To reality - The expectations
when you very much wana relish that set of happiness, will it
still be as realistic or its just a myth....

Ponder!!

26.11.07

Friday, November 23, 2007

Friday..
Finally I can call it the proper "TGIF"
Yes THANK GOD ITS yaaaa FRIDAY...
I was really busy
plus trying to handle the unsettled emotions,
the freaked out periods and the paranoid episode..
well at least im better..erm ya..(on second thought maybe not really)
But anyway as long as im occupied with stuff ..basically im not really bothered abt it.
Modules ending in a months time..so everything is like cramp together.
Well, i just wana die and i seriously need time off.
Next week is gona be a busy week..
Need to source for clothes....
Need to go for rehearsals nxt fri, then sat the actual thing..
argh!!! i dont wana do that modelling part myself...
Argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anyway on a sweeter note..I just booked my tickets to hk..yay *Grins*
I just cant wait man..
ok its not for lesiure..but at least im out of town for awhile..so i think it helps...
the thought of endless camwhoring, shopping, eat...haha
OMG!! i just feel soo excited...

I think im happy the way it is right now..
...Ive seriously havent being soooo into something before and im seriously dedicating my all to that god damn thing...
Im just too drained and tired to care about other stuff which i just think its not within me..soo yaa f**k it..
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Ok someone made me do this..which i think is brainless..
but anyway haha here goes lah..=P

W H O . W A S . T H E . L A S T . P E R S O N . T H A T?
1. You hung out with?: my partner.
2. Saw you cry: no one did or would perhaps..
3. Went to the movies with you?: i havent gone to the movie for ages..=(
4. You went to the mall with?: trisha..to buy stuff for assignments.
5. You went to dinner with?: my last dinner which was yest was at home...
6. You talked on the phone to?: L.B, then the 24hour operater.
7. Said ‘I love you’ to you and really meant it?: No comments
8. Made you laugh?: the thought of hong kong and what ive just converse with LB
W O U L D . Y O U . R A T H E R?
1. Pierce your nose or tongue? dont wan both, coz i think the belly is enough.
2. Be serious or be funny? depends on who im with..not many can see me goofing around
3. Drink whole or skim milk? whole..
4. Die in a fire or drown? i cant imagine,both will be a torture?
5. Spend time with your parents or enemies? parents of coz..
D O . Y O U . P R E F E R. .
1. Flowers or candy? candies, flowers only if they are lavenders.
2. Gray or black? Both la...they are my must have colours.
3. Color or Black and white photos? both holds different sentiments to me..
4. Lust or love? career can?? love of coz
5. Sunrise or sunset? erm i dont think i will get to see either one coz im always sleeping when the sunrises till it sets..haha..
6. M&Ms or Skittles?Can i have bouenos instead?
8. Staying up late or waking up early? i dont have a chance to sleep early..so i wont wake up early..
.A N S W E R . T R U T H F U L L Y !!
1. Do you like anyone?: Lets just say it isnt that anymore..
2. Do they know it?: I dont see the need to , since it doesnt really matter anymore..
D O . Y O U . P R E F E R. .
1. Sun or moon? none,i perfer the sky
2. Winter or Fall? No perferences as long as it makes me feel comfortable..

l3. Left or right?: I didnt notice.
4. 10 acquaintances or having two best friends?: Rather my selective ones.
5. Sunny or rainy?Sunny when i need to be out the whole day, rainy when i wana sleep.
6. Vanilla ice cream or chocolate ice cream?: I love ice-cream of almost all favor.
A B O U T . Y O U
1. What time is it?: 5.30a.m.
2. Nickname(s): LB,Mel,Melly
3.What is your birth date?: March 26
4. What do you want?: Have more time for myself to do my kind of " simple "stuff, not wanting big dramas in life but just rather hope that all my wants at that point of time just fall in place.
5. Where do you want to live? East..
6. How many kids do you want?: haa i love kids, but it all depends.
7. You want to get married? Not now or anytime soon
U N I Q U E
1. Nervous habit: i have no idea..
2. Are you double jointed?: ?
3. Can you roll your tongue?: Yes.to half
4. Can you raise one eyebrow?: no
5. Can you cross your eyes?: Yes, but dont ask me to do it.
6. Do you make your bed daily?: It all depends
R A N D O M
1. Which shoe goes on first? Right
2. Ever thrown a shoe at someone? erm noo..?//
3. What is your craziest experience ever? ive being good all this time.
F O O D
1. Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it? twirl.
2. Have you ever eaten spam? yaa
3. Favorite ice cream: I love ice cream....just makes my day..
4. How many kinds of cereal are in your cabinet? one i only like the original corn flake.
5. What’s your favorite beverage? coffee, tea, barley..
6. Do you cook? yaa when im hungry...
IN . T H E . L A S T . M O N T H . H A V E . Y O U ?
1. Bought something: YES..for assignments..*grrrr*
2. Sang: almost all the time when i hear my favorite song..
3. Been hugged: nope..
4. Felt stupid: yaaaaaa alot of times lately..
5. Missed someone: YEs??
6. Danced crazy: hahaha..not lately..coz im just too tired..
7. Gotten your hair cut: ya before sch start..
8. Cried: Nooooo for a long time..Noooo
9.Lied: Only if i think it doesnt mean harm..a white lie...too many at times..

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Clicking out...

23.11.07

Wednesday, November 21, 2007

tell her its nt it..

tell her its not true..

just make believe it just isnt it...

maybe it will make her feel better..

maybe it will maker her stick to that comfort zone..

maybe its her way of avoiding it....

just tell her that its just not about what she thought out of..

its freaking her out..

and to think that she has walk on..why now..

why all that...

just tell her whatever she wana hear...

for she no longer wants to get string into it again....

not now, not anytime soon....

its just enough!

21.11.07

Monday, November 19, 2007

"and she's so scared to get close to anyone because everyone that once said they would be there, LEFT".

Just that particular day, she smiled to realise there is afterall someone...

she was touched by the stuff that He told her..she was touched that he will always be there,if within means, he promised..A not so ordinary Friend she know of..rather a selective mate she acknowledge to...

Nothing fancy, nothing happening.. rather its all an act of what he and she thought as sincere..

To him, she didnt wear a mask..

To him, shes just being who she is..

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How many could see the real her, thru those mask she chose to wear on?

She who chose to wear a mask with several layer but none was fake..

Tell her about it, if one day you realise before you, she no longer wear that mask.

Just tell her about it..and she will be glad to call you that selective one..

19.11.07

Saturday, November 17, 2007

Good mornin Sat..
Time check 7.21am
Was up the whole night doing stuff for my webstore..
making amendment, doing shots for my accessories..
Did up the new set of description..

Well, I need to get the shoot done for my clothings..
then think of the sets of description...
drift the layout..
finalisng everything with LB in order for her to put the finalised layout for the upcoming upload..
Trying also to in between compile my market research report today..
I just hate doing report..
but am kinda getting numb...

I soo wana have mini time off..
And next fri seems sooo long.....

But oh well what can i do but whine..

Actually i was craving for zoukie junkie last night..but eventually ya i stayed at home..

Me n LB did "Mission P" last night..

OMG~ i really cant believe we are sooo auntie..

ok, it was me who came up with that idea..

but i just think if it helps more or less its ok to be auntie for just this little bit..

tsk tsk tsk...Hello LB!! you are still that hardcore auntie can..

whahhahahaaaa....

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That sanity..

That anixety..

That humanity..

To have a little of each might perhaps struck a little balance...

To at least make you feel better with yourself....

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I dont believe in always having to feed each and everyone's mindset to think that its just the way you should actually be nice n sweet n all..

At times when you just know you somehow feel that you should just stop being nice..perhaps to the people they will think that you have changed...

At that point of time, whats left off you aint the arguement or even the explaination as to why you aint "nice" anymore..coz they wont even take your explaination as the answer...

Ive snapped out of being nice...and im done with it...

Ive learnt to say no at the right time..

I also just feel that maybe to simply be more firm may just do myself a favour...

So Im nt that nice anymore but that doesnt mean Im gona start being a total bitch..

just that all one have to do or to be is to learn to say no n for the other to learn to accept rejection as a answer...

Sorry for the long entire...

Thats about all...

Clicking out.....

17.11.07

Friday, November 16, 2007

Cruise down for Web design lecture today..
Was Boring..a waste of time...
Then after went Shopping with L.B
it just sucks when you are not shopping for personal interest..
ewwww...
Our amount of "treasure" today wasnt satisfying..
Time is pressing becoz we need to load up new stocks next fri..
Gona continue "shopping" later...
Argh!! madness..
I just hope next fri would come quickly..I need some Sweet surrenders..
ZOukie Junkie~
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Fash Bash isnt over..
Major Projects still in hand...
Upcoming Xmas compeition which me and LB havent figured a way out yet to solve the merchandise problem n the model..
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But time is just that cruelly ticking away...
But at the same time its gona end real soon...


Me and L.B made countless attempts to take photos..but we just look supa tired..
end up with this...




HAPPY FEET!!!!


Alright thats about all love...
Its TGIF soo have a great great weekend..

....Simple coffee session, meetups, or juz lazing around....its an indulgent...
I heart them.<3 but sadly, havent have the time to do that nowadays....
Date me out ppl...haha I want those indulgent just for a day..
=P

P.S( zouk flea market...this coming sunday....18th nov)

Clicking out.....

16.11.07

Wednesday, November 14, 2007

Anorexia is a scary thing..
I feel sadden by the fact of what this disorder or sickness can do away to a person n the people around it.
The person facing it might juz lead its own death but up till that point they juz dont realise they have a problem..
how sick is that...
A price to look gd= the price of death ...
sad isnt it..
All you've got out of anorexia isnt a long lasting beauty instead it caused you to juz wither away..causing you to have ugly complexion, lifeless expression and robbed ur strength away..

Brazilian model Ana Carolina Reston died of anorexia at the age of 21.Her death was caused by multiple organ failure...



Losing the beloved one was unbearable,
imagine when a mother lose two of her beloved daughter just months apart to Anorexia..
Uruguayan model Eliana Ramos, 18, died of heart failure but whats worst just six months before her sister Luisel, 22 died with the same cause...
It just shattered the world off their mother..
When reading the article, i can feel the pain their beloved ones are going through....

(Eliana Ramos,18) (Luisel Ramos,21)
* Im thin, i didnt deny it..but I dont have any eating disorder or anorexia...
and im trying really hard to gain weight coz i dont think i look beautiful being all bone...
im not proud of it..
soo I dont think you should too..
If you think that being skinny and size zero is hot.then get a life...
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Lately Lots of stuff just overwhelmed my heart and mind..
Causing it to be entangled...
I dont quite at this point able to get myself out of that "emotion"


Just rememeber the small gesture..
Just rememeber the simple acts..
Just rememeber the endless say..
Just remember the smile and the laughter..
That i was told..
that i was to rememeber...

I want back that inner child
I want to at times act dumb..

I wana once again be able to manage and control my emotion
Give me back my soul...

I dont wana smile fakely
At all ends, I dont wana laugh with tears in my eyes..
having to lose more than ive attained...

14.11.07

Monday, November 12, 2007

Met Bestie around town today to pass her the stuff she purchased from my store...
Didnt feel like shopping around so we settled for coffee over at TCC..
was too lazy to camwhore so only took a few when we are about to go off...
Well juz did some catching up here n there nothing much..
and i can say i just dont feel it..
not sooo chatty chatty maybe coz alot is running up my mind lately..
soo i really need more time to recollect my thoughts...
Shes still as ever blissful with her bf...haha which is good..
everything is going good for her...
and Im glad she is starting work soon...
..we parted ways and I walk ard town alone for awhile to run some errands before heading home...

I enjoy the "me" time..

I enjoy being alone...

I enjoy not opening my mouth to talk...

On the way home, i saw a cute sweetie pie..

shes soo cute...didnt manage to take photo of her..

way cute..

I heart kids...

their smile and laughter juz melts the heart of mine...

Clicking out.....

12.11.07

Sometimes by the surrounding..

the people, the goings.. left one without much of a choice..

To me, its not within one to control when that calling comes..

To me, its juz how far you play the rule of that game..

and who call the shots..

But is it that you will be proud of..

or its a shame to gain that fame..

I really dont know what will become of me at the end of the day...

But I dont wana lose myself in order to gain what i thought was rightful..

Drifting away from my inner child..

Drifting away from my true self...

By then whats left is just an empty shell...

Sad..real sad...by then..

Is that smile for real,

is that handshake sincere..

How real is real..

12.11.07

Saturday, November 10, 2007

Now enlighten me, world!
If Strangers are said to be friends whom we have yet to meet..
If friends are said to be strangers whom we have meet and know of...
If lovers are said to be people whom we know and fall in love of...
Then enlighten me, world..

Did that stranger,friend and lover bring you thru an enchanting year...

will the one you met stay the next year..

will the one you met move along with you the very next year...

Now enlighten me, world!

10.11.07

Friday, November 09, 2007

Zouk on deepavali eve was crazy..

the place is like packed..but as usual we need not bare the Q-ing and all...

We did pop by zouk..but everywhere was like packed n we hated it...moreover mambo night were never for us...

Hence we end up staying in velvet the entire night..which is what I expected..haha

Glad to see Jo and kat after such long time..plus random friends here and there..and even the bouncer say I MIAed..yes I did can.. haha

especially Jo..

the last time i met her was like when..months ago..haha..

but im really happy to see her la..

had quite alot of drinks yest...

well its been awhile since i drank..

so i think its ok to drink abit more than usual once in awhile..

AND the best part was I saw CHEN HANWEI..omg!

his sooo gd looking....

with his age, he juz still look that good...

but his way too thin in person....

Anyway, i just told jo yesterday like can we dont meet in such places the next time..

can we do dinner or coffee or whatever..coz its really hard for us to talk..like having to shout at each other's ears when its suppose to be like heart to heart talk..haa

On the other hand darling jesss, we should meet up soon k..

I miss u tooo..like alot...

and yes, im working real hard....

hahahaha...

U wana keep a look out for me...haa...

ok thats about all

abit of a picture.....

Kat my khaki to zouk always...

Both my besties..

Jodi my tally bestie

Kat my fellow camwhore partner..=)

P.S I love you girls for the longest time...

I promise to me you girls up like soon ya..

Kat get bck to me when is your off day on a weekend coz u noe we dont do mambos..

and yes i will be giving zouk out a miss....

soo b4 that i will meet up wif u again =)

9.11.07

Wednesday, November 07, 2007

Hello midweek..wed..
Gona go for yvonne's today for buying..

Sherna's lecture yesterday was good..
wasnt boring...
Well this module is hell packed with upcoming event...
Fash Bash..
Xmas styling compeition..
Major projects...
The ongoing of my webstore..
hell packed like sardine..
but im happy..
coz at the very least it kept me away from stuff...

Well its the eve of deepavali..soo ive decided to go for a mini break..
to shut off from everything for awhile and recollect my thoughts...

Xmas styling compeition..the prizes are amazing..
haha was drooling at the thought of winning the $5000..
haha ok think too far..
but i will do my best...=)

I just want this year to pass quickly..

so that i will be a step closer to get over and done with school....

I have seen the worst in one..

I have heard the worst in one..

Now whats left of me about you..

A total of disguise ..

or afterall u are no angel from day one....

Whats truthful..

Whats worthy...

Now enlighten me, world...

I shut them out because i shant bother no more..

Goodbye to goodness....

and hello to distance....

7.11.07

Tuesday, November 06, 2007

Tues, into one more day to my mini break..

the respond is slowwwww..

but its gg steady..

soo ya hoping for it to get better..

nothing comes easy from the very beginning soo yaa...

trying very hard to make TFT recognise..but ya we need time to...

i understand where is it coming from..

coz i understand the heart of the consumer..

soo im gona advertise again

Tango For Two is officially launched...

http://tango-42.blogspot.com

Do visit..

and support us..

to anyone in particular..

the beautiful strangers..

Lately because of the web, i have been really really tied up...

still have to cover market research, web design, and that fashion communication major project which we havent even lay our hands on...

Next big event in hand..

FASH BASH

Location: St james (Gallery Bar)

Date:24th Nov

Time:1 to 6

Drop by if you have the time to support our very own local designers..and im sure you wont go home empty handed...

Alright time check 4.29a.m

having sherna's in the afternoon..

clicking out...

*Im still on selective hearing and speaking and i told J darling that i dont really wana open my mouth to converse lately...*

I know...

emo?

NOPE.. juz need to recollect my thoughts and try to pull back my soul...

6.11.07

Sunday, November 04, 2007

ITS OFFICIAL
MY DARLING WEBSTORE IS OFFICIALLY UP...

Lovely ladies..

Beautiful Strangers..

Anyone in particular...

As long as u love shopping and dressing up to the nines..

Tango For Two is here...

http://tango-42.blogspot.com

4.11.07

Saturday, November 03, 2007

I happen to charge upon this thai movie.. titled (Me,myself)

Synopsis:
When a lost memory returns, will love survive? That is the question asked in 'Me...Myself', where actor, Ananda Everingham (Shutter), plays a transvestite who loses his memory in a serious accident and ends up falling in love...with a girl.

It was kinda slow..but apart from the normal love story,
this show actually enlightened me in some ways....
Life is all about the different chances at a different point of time.
You may wake up to not know what have happened or who you actually are....
but in every stage of a different moment everyone deserve their rights to choose...
Its all about chances and choices
Its all moments...

The lead actor is cute..haa
His dad is an australian and his mum is from laos.


TFT is launching in a few hours..

I close my eyes and sincerely pray..
it would work out my way....


I need a break..
and deepavali eve shall just be the day..
see you love..

3.11.07

Thursday, November 01, 2007

Time check: 4am
1st Nov..
How time flies..
its gona be the end of 2007 in a months time..
if by then..
im sure i will sum it up as a tiring yr..
haa..Im sure fellow mates of mine feel the same way..

Anyway, 2 more days to the official launch..
and anxiety is already choking me.
at the very same time fear did its part to conquer my mind too...
Well till the official upload i still have time to do what i could..
then after its really not within me to control.
Do or do not..
by then no longer is abt trying..

Im still keeping myself in suspense whether i will eventually get that last laugh..
not for others or to do with others but soley for myself..

Im on a selective hearing and speaking mode nowadays..

Nothings wrong with me..I just need lots of ME time currently..

Tell me about it, but then again i might not listen nor talk about it...

1.11.07