Ponder, Feel, Walk on...

Wednesday, May 28, 2008

Time was never being unfair to us
it all depends on how u did justice to it
i always say lately that
time is passing fast when we are having fun
time is passing fast when we are busy
and time is passing fast when we are sleeping
if we had 48 hours a day
would the complain lessen..?
well i was disheartened lately with lots of things
but somehow i always seems to talk myself out of it to re believe that this time round it will do me right
this time round it will be recognized
this time round im understood that im not merely that
how long more can i talk myself out of
how long more can i finally sigh and say i did enough

lots of things make me grow alot more inside
ive become more nonchalant to stuff
ive become more stronger in a sense to accept the cruel fact as it is what it is
Withins means is what i took comfort with when i no longer can do much abt it
having in mind to go aboard to study surrounded my mind alot more lately
but i leaves till the day im done with the sch here.

I dont know maybe a change of something might always be good in a way that i will see stuff in another light
the change of environment can perhaps enlighten me

"give it up to the ppl u love u don love n whom u nv will get to love"
in all i wish it well....

it hurts when i know that i dont seem to know you anymore

not that you have changed neither am i

but perhaps silences was perferably the reason why

I await the end result

the showcase

the celebration

the sweet surrenders

and the flexible timetable

all in a months time later

God Bless the loves including you

Pop the moet&Chandon, sway to the music

just be merry happy~

28.5.08

Sunday, May 25, 2008

MAD RUSH!!
at this time of the month usually i would be in a mad mad rush
projects, assignments all having to fully try to be in a mist of half doing
now im still struggling with
Contemperary
ARchs
events
HR
damn its almost everything
its tougher than the previous month..
Library has been my it place to be..
well i love library..having the rows n rows of books and getting lost in it..
more library loving i guess .....
its holiday for the kids
and everyone seems to be going away..
i wana just hop on a plane n fly off,
away frm everything here..

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I make do with the silences that i was given
I make do with the distance that was left of us
I make do with the fact that i dont hv an idea how you will be from now onwards
I make do with you being ok without me
In all in all as long as you are perfectly happy and laughing brightly.
I make do I make do
Just for you~

25.5.08

Friday, May 23, 2008

Stay with me Mr Invisible
Hold my hand even if i cant see the hand of yours
Whisper to my ears as i will always be listening..
but this time round maybe the voice is fading..
Stay with me Mr Invisible..
if you really hv to go,
can you stay alittle while longer?

Im drained metally and physically.
i just wana retreat to hibernation mode
but it seems not the case.
Maybe I need the help of some booze.
maybe I need the help of sleeping pills.
But in actual fact ,
Maybe I need to get you out of my mind.
i miss the bedtime story that makes me go to sleep
at least one last one?

today i took comfort within means,
today i took comfort that it will make me grow up alittle more..
today i was totally tired and drained out..
maybe by falling sick would be a real good excuse for me to sleep for a long while
and be noncholant about the happenings..

23.5.08

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

dont bother shant care dont bother shant care dont bother shant care
time and again you repeat the same old thing when you feel dejected or when you are not able to have anything or way to deal with it..
but at times you know it doesnt mean totally that you can whole heartly not bother or not care..
at times you feel that you should finally mean it
and not ever bother or care again

and this time round
i really mean it
I had enough of bothering to care, to bother to be concern about, to bother to do it within reach or means..
this time round, i dont care and not bother anymore
this time round its not that it dont mean a thing anymore but i should just make do with what was left to me..
this time round, i dont even need you to walk alongside with me anymore even with silences..
this time round, i wish you well..
having said all that i never till now hated the idea of the happenings..
nor dislike any part of it..
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Because..
at least there was this once..

P.S ( i wish Europe was my permanent address and my yesterdays could last longer )

21.5.08

Monday, May 19, 2008

and now im here

not shaken

not swayed

i stood still with the decision

i held close with both hands

that im sincerely listening to the inner child of mine

this time round.. its said to bid gdbye

we're too late for the too soon

and too soon for the too late...

my supposely happy times

goodbye~

this time i smiled cause you are free to smile without me

you will fair well

19.5.08

我的快樂(錦繡2重唱)
演唱：錦繡二重唱
徘了徊了走了　錯了過了等了
累了倦了困了　煩了亂了冷了　
都是真的瘋的想的念的　
不安的焦慮的複雜的夢過的　
擁有的失去的　怎麼忘呢
你坐過的沙發寬了　你愛的音樂停了　
我等著你等成了擺設我的你的他的　
好的壞的難的灰的藍的黃的　
酸的甜的苦的　都還記得非常想遺忘的　
絕對不能忘的我想要換你了　真的不想要了　
只得瘋了環島的火車載著我第幾天了　
忽然發現這一刻我不想你了我的快樂　會回來的
只要清楚曾愛得那麼深刻　不准問值不值得
我的快樂　會回來的　離開不是誰給了誰的選擇
我的快樂　會回來的只要清楚曾愛的那麼深刻　不准問值不值得
我的快樂　會回來的　離開不是誰給了誰的選擇
我的快樂　會回來的只要清楚曾愛的那麼深刻　不准問值不值得
我的快樂　會回來的　離開不是你給了我的選擇
瘋的想的念的　不安的焦慮的複雜的夢過的　擁有的失去的　怎麼忘呢
非常想遺忘的　絕對不能忘的我想要換你了　真的不想要了　只得瘋了
瘋了...

" 離開不是你給了我的選擇
離開不是誰給了誰的選擇 "

the so called best is over..

19.5.08

Sunday, May 18, 2008

School this week was pretty much the same..

I guess we are all glad the upcoming event is on a good track so far..

Gona start to get busy as all the projects are in a clearer light..

Steamboating Yesterday was good. too bad miao couldnt make it..but we will make up for it again real soon i guess..

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I didnt have the heart to think of how upset i was, revolving with my own personal stuff

as at this Point of time my heart goes all out to the people in China And Myanmmar

Mine's just nothing afterall..

Having a peaceful land to step on and live on is indeed worth being thankful about..

"and so our hands held close, our eyes shut and we sincerely pray for the well being of the people"

SO I SAY THANK YOU FOR THE MUSIC, THE SONGS IM SINGING.

THANKS FOR ALL THE JOY YOUR BRINGING WHO CAN LIVE WITHOUT IT I ASK IN HONESTY, WHAT WILL I BE?-VIVIDLY THIS SONG CAME TO MY MIND~

at times and moments like that, its all about the getting used to.

At times like that will I come to that mind of yours??

~所以明白。所以离开。所以不再因爱。而再爱~

18.5.08

Friday, May 16, 2008

我不需要 Tiffany 主唱：薛凱琪作曲：方大同

你的體貼　要比項鍊　更亮

你的幽默　要比手鐲　更光

仿佛帶我走進 Tiffany 讓歲月在流金屏住呼吸　

閉上眼睛等一件最貴重的首飾

＊你叫我更美麗就算鑽石永遠買不起只要懂得送我一首詩　

和小玩意我不需要 Tiffany

你叫我好神氣就算皇冠永遠戴不起只要覺得送我一輩子　

珠光寶氣向全世界炫耀我的感情

誰說永恆　要靠指環　證明你的女生　

要用時間　珍惜

彷彿帶我走過半世紀從白紙到黃金鑲著詩意　

刻著故事打一件最貴重的首飾

REPEAT

＊終於一次　點石可成金你吻過的脖子有一串閃爍的日子

怪不得我相信　愛從來不用裝飾

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I dont need lavish price tags, i just want the silly nothings that pins the smile on my face..

I dont even need a tiffany!

16.5.08

Monday, May 12, 2008

Among all the kids of big names celebrity
Ive always Heart The sweet little girl of Tom Cruise and Katie Holmes
Ive always love kids..
but im not saying the other kids of the celebrities aint cute
but i just personally love suri..
her eyes is filled with innocences..
shes gona be as beautiful as her mum when she grows up

Monday..time to work my arse off..have a good week loves

it doesnt matter anymore, i think at this point of time its not that i dont care

instead i should not care anymore..

i was right with the answer i had b4 i left for europe, but i was shaken. Now?

to leave in silence.

i didnt choose to. i was left to.

Sometimes walk alongside with me, even if it brings nothing but silences..

12.5.08

Sunday, May 11, 2008

Life took moments away just like that
Mine?
Just ended moments ago

utterly it.. dishearted

i had calmness

and i was glad it sent me off hibernating once more

this time alot more at ease

11.5.08

Have you thought that when u turn to see the one you left behind and look them in their eyes, can you actually see that afterall they are sadden bythe fact that they are being left behind..

Maybe you just dont know because its always the norms to walk forward and tend to forget to look back..

Maybe it pains you to look into those sadden eyes but its also the same when the ones left behind was shown nothing but the sad backview drifting away..

11.5.08

Lately im on a movie strike..
im diggin up all the old film and watch them..
movies like..
Great Expectations
PS.I Love You (which ive watched for the 2nd time)
Love Actually
27 dresses
Troy
Alvin and the Chipmanks
The Holiday
so far all of it is good i must say or maybe im really wanting to watch them

but didnt have a chance to back then

when they are screened in the cinemas
Next Im gona dig out the following movies:

Atonement

Sweet Novemeber

Definitely Maybe

Alot Like Love

Water Horse

Made of Honour

The Pursue Of Happyness

and the list goes on...

Im soooo on movie strike now

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Im still praying for things to go fine

like i say fine is good enough

is that too much to ever ask for?

Sometimes rememeber me, Just sometimes

11.5.08

Saturday, May 10, 2008

Ive learnt to not look forward that much anymore
ive learnt to live the norms
Ive learnt to even more... go easy with lots of stuff

Europe really sent me off thinking long and hard
and it really made me look at stuff in another light
Of cause i dont deny and say that im giving credit to europe just cause its that kinda lifestyle ive always wanted..
but life was without denial soo much more steadfast and simple to the people there..
maybe i can never make u totally understand..
words cant explain many stuff
isnt it right to say that the job should be for the eyes of the beholders to make believe..

i found peace..
i had more calmness in me..
now all i ask for is the good of you in everything...

Now is the time i should just pop the moet and chandon, have a bottle of henie and cheers to the glass of wine..

and i thought i was told there will be a you there..
but im asking where is the you now?

10.5.08

Thursday, May 08, 2008

Doing the norm surfing for "atas" music for runway show
i charge upon a really great designer
nice~
welcome to the vinetage era
they are ur new silver and gold..
i always love vinetage stuff
they are what i call the new kid on the block.
enjoy!!

P.S (Im praying sincerely to the man above to make everything go fine..fine is good enough)

TGIF!!
meeting my babe for dinner than chill pill session..
everyone have a little doze of chill pill
its friday people..
its been a long while i see mr yeo..
hopefully next week goes as planned..for a short get together
to chill and chat..
see ya!!

LOVE
mel

8.5.08

Its almost 6 days since im back from my europe trip..

i miss it big time..

i miss norway's coffeehouse by the pier..
i miss my lodging up along the hills..
i miss the sight of seagulls and swans by the lake..
i miss the shopping at small towns..
i miss amsterdam's walkway..
i miss the sky that is bright even if its 9 at night
i miss the bed of tulips..

i miss all of it big time...
i found peace when im over there..like never before..
my heart slowed down..
my thoughts came back together..

P.S ( you might say the grass is always greener on the other side, i agree but im sure at the other side what you couldnt find here back home is maybe how simple life was to them...)

when i go back again, hopefully soon in time i wished for it to be long term..

in your busy life have you actually forgotten to look at what was actually beside you all this while..
not money not lavish goods not "atas" food
but the buildings that has always been there forever, the walkway you walked on,the sky above you that changes, and the wind that blows..
have you actually forgotten all that..?
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to me, buildings is the music in solid form, they will stay with me forever..rooted to the ground..
i say human heart changes..or rather time changes the wants the dos and the havings in human..

till then loves...
have peace in mind..
have love with u 24/7
have smile and laughter..
have the slightest stuff that makes your eyes beam..
life is just all about foolishly silly nothings..isnt it..
or are they as u grow up long forgotten and gone..?
its your choice..
XOXOXOXO

8.5.08

Tuesday, May 06, 2008

What Your Taste in Chocolate Says About You

You are sweet, mellow, and easily satisfied.
You don't like anything too intense and dramatic.
Deep down, you're a kid at heart... and you're nostalgic for the past.

You are down to earth and lovable.
A true friend, you're very tolerant and understanding.
In fact, your friends' biggest problem is that they don't like each other!

You love to be the center of attention. You enjoy entertaining your friends.
You feel lost when no one is interested in you... You're too interesting to be ignored.

The Chocolate Oracle

6.5.08

Monday, May 05, 2008

Our regards and comfort didnt reach you on time
you didnt leave us even with a goodbye
or give us a chance to say ours.
why that hurry
why that sudden

leaving trace or is it without
i chose to believe that you left us some stuff
the smile u had
the laughter you brought..

farewell my friend
farewell
we will meet someday..

Live like never before
Love like now is our forever..

5.5.08

Sunday, May 04, 2008

Im finally back home
I didnt feel bad about coming back home
but i definitely missed everything over there..
It has given me a different kind of mindset and feelings..
that im seriously giving it some thought to wana live there for long term..
It came to me as a surprise indeed that i would love it inside out..
maybe some would say I didnt stay long enough to feel and understand the country more..
maybe every country has its pros and cons..
im not saying im ditching my very home
but i really hope that ever there will be a day
i wana experience the kind of lifestyle i've always had in my dreams
the green courtyard

the cooling weather

the small town
the town that hibernates after 6
i like the whole idea..

along hopefully by then with my other half
the man who also look forward to coming back to me and our home...
living simply...
=)

I saw a rainbow

i aint kidding when i say i didnt see one in singapore in my whole life

but i saw one

a beautiful one over at the sky of holland

i saw it appear right before me

then again i saw it disappear

..but i was wishing it stayed a little longer

at least till i could say its for you..

4.5.08