Monday, December 31, 2007
31 st DECEMEBER 2007
the last of all our rightful yesterdays..
Some part of the yesterdays for sure i wana bring them along to the new year.. my selective ones, and of cause the great times that i never at all wana leave behind..
I had without doubt a set of my yesterdays that i rather choose to leave them behind.. the unhappy stuff that i was to leave them all behind because i no longer think i have the energy and time for it in the coming year..
I also at all ends have a fair share of yesterdays that i cant at all leave behind just because i thought i should or could..
but i know that as the days goes..it will all just get better.. by no choice, by no chance it will just turn out to be what it eventually should be..
Well I had a gd last week of 2007..
Cousin's outing then over to grannies'..
Xmas eve was a blast..
Xmas day was all soo heartwarming..
The meet up movie session with jess darling and the unplanned coffee session wif deryk..
it was all good...
nothing much of a drama but rather a whole jet lot of simple goings..
I heart <3>
2008 , may
it bring nothing but peace in ones heart..
it bring nothing but countless of small thoughts that leads to joy..
it bring nothing but a step closer to what ive always wanted..
it bring nothing but strength to go thru all the tough and endless goings..
and of cause all the love, laughter, and joy among the pple i love and care for..
We will have a good year..bcoz we make them out to be what we should have and thought out to be..
even if theres hiccups we will see them thru....
Im still very much tagging along with me my past knowings, my past goings and my past havings..may 2008 bring a whole lot of a different set of knowings, goings and havings to add up to the memoried that i very much would remininsce in time..
Lots of love,
Mel..
and i'll see you loves next year..
<3<3<3
31.12.07
Thursday, December 27, 2007 I had my share of heartwarming and a happening Xmas this year.. Ive never regretted to put on hold my studies 4 years again because during that 4 years I've learnt stuff and I've known people that has taught me alot of stuff...Thru the 4 years it was ever that clear throughout that I wana be putting my feet in the fashion industry and it has made me more clearer and more persistant to pursue it... 27.12.07
Wednesday, December 26, 2007 26.12.07
Saturday, December 22, 2007 22.12.07
Monday, December 17, 2007 17.12.07
Thursday, December 13, 2007 13.12.07
Thursday, December 06, 2007 Xmas is just around the corner..A moment to show ur love.. A moment to Share some love.. No exception, Tango For Two 6.12.07
Wednesday, December 05, 2007 5th December.. 5.12.07
Monday, December 03, 2007 3.12.07
The eve was spent with my usuals and
the day itself was a celebration or rather a get together over at Aunt Livia's place...
though some of the family memebers wont present
but it was yet a good get together..though i was feeling sleepy..
Well how could I just thank my beloved friends but not everyone at home...
WEll Biggest THANK YOU everyone at home for being ever sooo supportive....
Mel Knows them all in the heart but just that i dont know how to express them..
soo thank you everyone at home..
My mum dearest,my elder sister, my grandma, my aunts and uncle, my cousins and everyone at home..
THANK YOU pple for the love and concern you have for me and I love you guys lots and lots.....
Thank you for believing and thank you for being that supportive....
Thank you is a word I can have endless going on and on about and to the many particular everyone that I held close to my heart..
Xmas is gone just like that..
Did u have the most fun, warmth, peace and love out of it..?
I hope all of u did..
I had countless of wishes that touches the heart of mine.. the countless talks, the countless listening ears and the countless reassurance that mel will just do fine
People like
Jess bestie, (remember the conversation the other day where we will be godmas of each other's kids..what we will name our kids , how good and ideal we want our lifes to be..
how we will be best of friends and how our kids will grow up as besties as well..
LOVE YA for being there even though we aint the kind of best friends who hang out 24/7.. I know that i will make that wise choice when the time is right..u know what i mean..)
Celine babe, (How im that close to u and everyone in your family, im thankful for the shoppping trips, the camwhores, the gossips, the heart to heart talk, the everything and the anything we do together..many more great years to come..LOVE YA)
J darling, (5 long yrs and still counting, remember the thing we had 3 yrs down the road?haha
well but i really hope u will find that someone who is simple..remember i say its nt what u want her to be simple but the set of simplicity that each of us calls our very own, heart u tons therefore i wan the very best in you...LOVE YA as much still bcoz i know where you will be when i come finding for you)
L.B(Its a short yet great bless to have known a someone, that it seems like we have known each other for many year.. thank you for all the times we had.. the countless of fighting towards what we rightfully held close to our heart, having the patience to deal with me being fussy which i apologise, and also seeing and hearing me emo-ing...its a rough year but we will see thru them together till we grad ya...and im sure you will be wise to know what i told u like the choices and the wants, the worries we talk abt and how it freak us out..but we will seee thru it.. LOVE YA..)
Jodi my tally sista( Its nt a gd smooth year for you, but trust me that it will just get better as the days and times go by without us even noticing, I've heard you, and i really hope you will just walk out of that whole thing like you really mean it this time round....we will be just fine..trust me and urself yaa..LOVE YA)
JAZZY( the previous entry is to you, soo i hope you get what i wana convey... i see the me in you, its alot to bare for a 18yr old but you will do just fine...no words could be consolable to heal that scar in the heart of urs but the love showered will at the very least ease them..LOVE YA and i hope that by the end of a certain time we will truly smile to each other like we mean it..)
To people also like my new founded emo clan=P calvin, well we didnt have the real deal to really have got to know exactly what in particular are we emo-ing abt, but i thank you for being there, bcoz its hard to have someone to really talk and really feel like they know what im going thru.
Its hard to really talk one out to get over it,
I truly know how its like to again and again be left hanging in mid air..that hurts really..
But Mel is telling herself to be just fine
soo Cal you should tooo...
=)
many more heart to heart talks really soon and get bum into at zouk very soon i hope......
To kat my zoukie junkie khaki for being there to laugh at the silly stuff we see or did, thank you for always being there..LOVE YA..ah meow..
To many others as well,
which doesnt mean u guys are nt important just that i will fill them up when i have another set of thank yous to say..
but i heart you ppl toooo...
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Celebration at zouk was good..
people im with, 
though eventually i stayed longer at zouk soo my ride is still valid to keep for the next time round..heeeheee.
I heart all of them ton loads...
Mel knows who to rely to when she wana go running back to..
Mel Knows that to them in particular im still who i am..
Mel also know that she still have love and was loved...
"I've forgotten the heartaches and the uncertainty for that moment bcoz i had your love"
It feels soooooooo goood to have holidays to slack and laze around...
have been up late..having lots of me time..
which i enjoyed..
just borrowed 3 books from my cousin..
Just wana overdose myself this holiday with dvds..
with books to read and listen to some music...
somone once told me to listen to corrine may's song have a glass of wine and spend the night away just like that..
its just that simple that takes your breathe away..
Have been spending time at my grannies...
out with my cousins today..
which i enjoyed..
bonding session..
i dont wana forget where i should go back to at the end of the day...
I dont wana be lost in the big world and forget the way back home..
4 more days to Xmas..
to the loves..
share your love...and dont be scared to open your arms to welcome love...
soon you will wave 2007 goodbye..
be glad about it and snap out of all the bad times you've been through...
God is kind and he knows that his children will deserve a better and greater year...
Im holding on to your hand, loves and we will be just fine to walk away and towards 2008...
I will be there like you guys will always be for me forever...
smile just once like you ever mean it and tell me about it...
P.S(Jas, if you are reading this.. its never easy i truly can feel it with my whole heart... it might not get better like the way you want it to be, but it will in time..no one can ever make up to u the times you have been thru but it just takes a little more courage to go on... in god's arm you know you will forever be safe, there and then trust him that you will be mended in time...maybe not anytime near but the distance it takes will be worth all that little courage, remember we all deserve a better and greater chance.. and only we can make that sound like its rightfully ours all in time..)
Merriest Xmas and what next
a better 2008
peaceful and filled with simple love all around 24/7
=)
Was watching this show and i saw another side of the always comedic Da Bing
He wrote and sang a song to a passed on loved one..
The pain that he portayed isnt just like a knife stabbed waiting for the wound to finally heal n turn into scars..
But the pain was the impact that will be engraved to cause him living them througout his entire life..
that till today he will or ever walk out of it..
Breathing yet u are as good as died.. a living corpse..
You no longer can or judge or try to ever reason out or talk yourself out..
whats left behind from the person might not be something that anyone wuld wana be left to go thru.. but sadly its always the case that the ones who are left behind just doesnt at all have the choice to decide whether he/she can handle them..
I cried.. and the impact of the lyrics surround my mind over n over again..
人魚--詞/曲/演唱：大炳
自從愛上你思念就變成了海在寂寞夜裡蔓延開來
我坐在海中間
夜夜以淚洗面
數著一千年的悲哀
但是你一呼喚我就像句古老咒語
我變成一條美麗人魚
縱身躍入海面
閃耀光彩鱗片張開
我的雙臂游向你的身邊
* 解救我 帶我離開寂寞
如此難耐呼吸著
孤獨的鰓吐的氣泡
都是悲哀
聽見了嗎 人魚的歌
我還在心碎的懸崖
夜夜數著我的淚
我把自己囚禁起來在
你的喧嘩世界之外
會不會有一天
你才無意發現一具乾枯人魚殘骸 *
不眠不休地唱著......
Whether its commerical or just another tool of publicity..
I think that should be cast aside..
and really feel the side of his story..
No one have the right at all to judge another..
No one have the right at all to say you are right or wrong..
rather it just takes a harmless moment to just sit down and listen to what his heart is saying..
because it might just be what we are trying to say but doesnt at all feel and admit or face up to..
everyone doesnt at all have the duty to fill you up in your emotional side..
but everyone or at least you urself should try to just listen to what your emotions is trying to convey..
at the end of the day its just all abt you n your inner child.
can you really feel them within and inside out?
or you already lose it and no longer know how...
聽見了嗎 人魚的歌..
我把自己囚禁起來在你的喧嘩世界之外..
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Its Xmas and next its new year..
let peace surround this moment till 2008...
thats all i ever asked for...
love and be loved..
its thurs..
all the tension and the assignments are one by one settled..
im only left with a market research presentation on fri and an exam on the coming tues
this 3 months is a roller coaster ride..
managing my emotions and at the same time try to not be overwhelmed by the emotions and lose the standard n expectations i have for oneself..
1st time on stage.
1st time owning an online store.
the feeling is good, (minus the almost at times haywire time management)
well, some did ask how come no time but can chat over msn..
or even play facebook..
its a little mini way for me to destress..i think it helps becoz if too much is on my mind and i still cannot figure what i should n could do.. by diverting the attention away for awhile really helps..
Well im soo counting down to the holidays after the exam next week..
and yes the HK trip.. in about 30 days...
time really flies...
and im glad it is that way..
Im thankful for the goings..
and im glad that up till now
im happy to still see myself fighting and working hard for this god damn dream..
the worries still exist but im sure along the way i will figure it out somehow or another..
Im gona end this entry with..many many thank you..
thank you new founded friends...whom really click well with me..(u guys know who u are)..
thank myself for trying to talk the heart n mind to go thru this whole journey...
and of coz thank you to the man above for the blessings...
THANK YOU..YOU and YOU....
we will have a better year...
run towards 2008 and bid 2007 a lovely goodbye...
20 more days to xmas..
25 more days to new year..
Its an appreciative year to me..
Ive learn to appreciate the slightest or even the most simple gesture...
Ive learn to appreciate the short slightest sweet surrenders in between my busy schedule...
Ive learn to laugh and smile as i really mean it...
Im more thankful n im appreciating all the concerns...
Its a fruitful year..
a year i set myself back to doing something which i left off..
Back to schooll and I swear that im giving my all to it..
I gave lots of stuff a miss..
and even if i do have regrets in future..
they will just be what i called rightful..
there will nv be the best of both side, soo i chose my studies over lots of stuff..
My inner child is still lost somewhere out there.
My thoughts and emotions are still very much wandering about..
But its getting better...
The concerns i wana avoid n prevent...
Im still very much baring them in mind...
2008..
An "IT" year..
More good times being missed..but its all worth it
Thank you selectives.. for being there to hear me whine..
for assuring me that i will be just fine..
Thank you J darling for the constant help,and the reminder.. heart u big time..
Pls be the ones to tell me if u see the slightest change in me..
be it good or bad..
bcoz i dont wana at the end of the day be the person im always afriad to be...
Tell me the right kind of wrong and the wrong kind of right...
and in time have their own set of simplicity.. that tags a big smile to each n everyone of their face..
woke up really early to get my makeup n hair done for the event in the afternoon..
days before the event i was freaking out about how i will perform on stage..will i be too nervous...
But none of that happened..
I was just being myself..njoying the whole process..
Because in my mind i didnt see it as a compeition at all..
Im not all out to win
even though yes the grand win is 5k..
The whole experience was priceless..
I enjoyed or rather we enjoyed..
Know a few nice fellow participants which we clicked and talked and laughed..
Which i think is better than winning..
its always gd to know someone new..
and that someone is a little kid...
she will be our future designer..
young yet with a great design talent...
also a lovely lady from another group...
Bryan Wong haha..
Ive always liked him..
no doubt from what i always thought him to be..his really very sincere and a real true person..
no airs nothing...
though we didnt really interact backstage but i can just sense that his really who he is...
Didnt manage to take a pic with him bcoz right after the show he hurriedly left..=(
haha..
He commented that Im pencil thin...
haha..
yes i am..and im trying really hard to gain weight..
finally its over...
and i can divert my attention back to the remaining projects..yet at the same time looking forward to my breaks and the hk trip....
Im sure all of us are waiting for the hk trip..
YES!!
Alright shall end this entry with overdose of pictures..
which some ive yet to receive..soo shall post the rest when i got them...
Its priceless and am thankful..=)