Friday, April 25, 2008

Hello Singapore..
Time check: 9 in the morning
Date: 25/04/08 (Friday)
Location: Norway, stavanger.

Everything was great.. I never thought that i would love it here so much..
And I realise that I actually love the idea of places closing as early as 4 and waiting for the bus to go slow..unlike singapore..
I actually love the houses more than highrise apartments...
I realise that i actually love the idea of a small cosy town that sells stuff as compared to the big great shopping malls.
Here at stavanger the air is fresh, the sky is blue, the people are nice and everything seems sooooo cool..


"the gracefulness is to have what you have and hold them close to you"

for sure i know my mindset has changed..
for sure i know that im ever gona be more appreciative
and for sure this place, the memories, the everything
i will never at all forget..
Never..
maybe i will be back again...
maybe i wont even have a chance to again...
thats why i treasured...



when you have nothing in mind or even the slightest demand..you will truthfully smile like a child..
contented and truly happy!!




shall show pictures when im back people..

i do still miss home and you of course...

lots of love,
Mel

25.4.08

Tuesday, April 22, 2008

Time check: 10.55pm
Location: Waiting area to board the plane...

Not very much of an excitment..
maybe when i set foot to the feet of amsterdam...
hello new walkway..
hello sky..
hello fresh air....
and of cause hello strangers..
a home i will call for 2 weeks....

till then..
take care all the love and hopefully i will be able to get connection over at my "new home base"
till the next update...
Im looking forward but at the same time i will miss home and you...

lots of love..
Mel

22.4.08

Friday, April 18, 2008

school this week kinda fall in on the bad side..
everything seems soo wrong...
but shant yak about it...

its friday sooo yaa..

watched the movie with Paris Hilton in it..
was ok..

i like the sentance by the fugly girl called June..
"Not everyone is able to make any boys run to them and say how they feel and go breatheless.."


I wana watch Definitely Maybe heard its not bad..

catch up time
before i fly off to the other end of the world..

may i find comfort and understanding..
and also a more clearer mind to face up to what i was thinking..

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you dont miss your water till the well runs dry



Sometimes asking can be that pointless and giving in ur effort can make u even the more dishearted...
at the end of the day you will just conclude them as tired..
but then again if u dont make whats worth and make it feel that its worth...
then maybe the whole deal is its not worth the attention...
to me, i wana hold on more..
because by letting go is even harder...


I still didnt forget..
not till this point..
I didnt...

18.4.08

Saturday, April 12, 2008

Sometimes I find that i no longer can pen my thoughts no more..
coz my mind doesnt speak of likewise what the heart says..
but all I know is when i do miss ive learnt to admit that i do..
when i do feel ive learnt to admit that i do..
when it matters to me it matters to me..
even if it meant nothing...

i dont wana say im beginning to not know you anymore..
i dont wana say its not like before..
but why it feels like it

what are we?
what are us?
for sure you are not just a someone i used to replace and forget my yesterdays..
for sure you are not someone i seek comfort from..
for sure i know you are you and not some shadow..

defintely you took the pain away..
defintely somehow you soften the heart of mine in some way..
and defintely i smiled truly...

you aint gona be far from me
you aint gona be a stranger right down the street..
you aint gona be someone whom im gona say goodbye to..

to forget,
never will I...


I wish nothing..
but you well..
(rememeber i asked you to give me back the then.i want the then in you)

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11 more days to the other side of the world..
im not leaving you behind,
im always here..

i seek the sky at the other end to bring me calmness
i seek the air at the other end to bring me peace..
i seek the sight of a rainbow to make me believe it will be the after rain happiness..

I will bring you with me..
not in the mind
but the heart

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Im not the everyone else..
maybe you thought i am..
maybe...

12.4.08

Tuesday, April 08, 2008

SCHOOL!!!!
i can forsee that i will be busy busy busy..
but i guess i will be fine..
we'll see

2 weeks more to the other side of the world..
Why am i not really exicted about it..
I.will.miss.you.tons.
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Grace your heart with the allowance to make believe that everything's gona just get better.
No one is a poor loser when it comes to love.
Being truthful doesnt kill a heart that feel.
What kills is when the other dont feel likewise anymore.


Perhaps till then I should just return the yesterdays to you..
the yesterdays that hasnt got me in your life..
the yesterdays that wasnt what we thought out to be called ours in time..

By then I wish you well, in a far distance..

8.4.08

Saturday, April 05, 2008

TOO TIRED TO REALLY PEN THE STUFF GOING ON LATELY..
BEING INVOLVED IN SFF OVER RAFFLES CITY REALLY DID AWAY MY ONE WEEK BREAK...
MY MOOD WAS
I DONT KNOW HOW TO EXPLAIN
TIRED..
NUMBED...
DRAINED...
ABIT HYPER AT TIMES DUE TO NOT SLEEPING WELL LATELY..

WHATEVER IT IS
I AINT FEELING SUNSHINE..

BUT YA WHATEVER..

MAY THE MIND FIND PEACE AND THE HEART FEEL TRANSQUIL..

its wasnt anywhere near...

it wasnt in fact such a distance too..

yet im losing the touch of it...

tell me about it..

surrealism does people a favour to dream..

it perishes the heart at the same time..

sad case

5.4.08