Ponder, Feel, Walk on...

Sunday, February 22, 2009

I was just wondering days before where this friend of mine has gone to..
doesnt seem to hear about him alot lately..
dont see him online..
no comments on fb
no small talks during late nights
and in the end i brush it off to thinking his the same as me, busy with school assignment

I was wrong..
Just today.. he msn-ED me on his mobile
and broke the news that his at penang and into his 3rd week there
his gona stay there for good..
and in long term his not coming back.
I was taken aback and at the same time felt sad..

I felt sad because he must have faced some kinda major lifechanging "reality" that his gona ditch everything as close to heart as possible to go to somewhere soo new and foreign to him..
I felt sad because upon hearing what he told me, it just made us conclude what reality does to him and theres nothing he could do but to make the best of whats left.

I felt even more sad because in our whole life we cant deny as much as we tried to that
reality is something we hv to surrender to, whether we like it or not..

He simply said he chose kinship to whatever was supposely his piority..
He chose kinship to leaving everything here to somewhere new
To him as long as his with the kinship thats all that matters and thats where home is gona be all about..
I respected that and i sincerely want him to be happy and i believe every closure to something here leads to a new over the other side of the world..

I didnt wana post this up in FB under notes for I know some of his friends doesnt know much about his sudden move
therefore im dedicating this to u my friend,

my heartfelt wishes that everything will be good as u had love held near to ur hand and u are holding on to those u love, a kinship..
you didnt lose anything for you gona gain more.. an experience more than all of us

Ask yourself in the middle of the night, when ur days are coming to an end, how many was heartfelt comfort, warm hug and earnest blessing ? if those luxury and lavishness are what u sooth after..whats left of u in time is nothing but some kind of dust blown away by the wind.. i guess people would then say I dont remember much abt them, now that truly is sad

22.2.09