Ponder, Feel, Walk on...

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

Truth be told?
naive..
without doubt your inner child will always tell you or chose to tell u things u want out to be..

I feel insecure with the upcoming stuff..
I feel the fear current swiping my way
I dont know why
can i really let go and trust the end result?
I have fear in me..
my heart pinched like its telling me im in for the decision i made
to not depend on what i usually should do..

im at loss of grip and words
and i feel really frustrated bcoz at this phrase i only can handle so much and seriously im on the verge of drowning
and i feel like im fighting this result alone..
those fear made me shivered..

God oh god pls i beg of u to hear me out
pls make me stand on just a fair bit more
its nearing the end
im only shouting out to you bcoz i only can turn to u for strength and to overcome the fear in me

I dont know anymore if theres more i hv to say
i only can do this much and already so much is left off me
im tired, world
and if crying does help
by all means...

Amen~

28.10.08

Monday, October 27, 2008

So the photoshoot is tiring
my god
but its finally done
YAYness!
now thats left is just what i call adding magic to the photos
as the end result is nearing

it also marks a tint of sadness in me

people afterall go their separate ways and venture out in different aspect in life..

but then again close clique of ppl you held dear will always be there when needed no matter what

im sure the people ive known so far will..=)

some photos taken while having a break off the shoot

photos that add to the collection we in time call memento...

~"True happiness is of a retired nature, and an enemy to pomp and noise; it arises, in the first place, from the enjoyment of one's self, and in the next from the friendship and conversation of a few select companions."~

there was this once i remembered every word you said

you are going to be there ..

be there in 2 months time..

but you are longed gone..

so are the words, the voice and your sight..

I wish you. love .

27.10.08

Sunday, October 26, 2008

I have so many stuff in hand that i wana cross out quickly
textile, styles & trend, internship, FMP
i just wana cross them out like once n for all
I seriously asked lots of questions as to what next?
ive got people telling me that sometimes its not about the extra cert or how high your qualification is
but perhaps the very chance at the moment of time
I thought of my next step after the graduation the degree that takes place for another year
and then after what next..
contemplate masters in a few years later but firstly and realistic as it is perhaps
i have to start working to struck the balance of gaining some working experience
i always wana make studying overseas come true.. to be away from home for a few year..
but lately from small talks with friends they told me about looking at things on a more solid ground, on where we all stand..

im contemplating my dreams but i know at the back of my mind that every differenet point of time there will be somewhat choices u hv to take there and then

ive learnt that there will never be such a thing that says for the very sake or because i was told or even the most STUPID ive seen bcoz my friend say this n this therefore im doing it

you had the time of your life to make lots of things matter..
but many a times in between that time of your life there are unexpected chances for u to decide what to do as to next..
perhaps to make it wise is to depends on that very moment and that includes the needs the timing and of course a decision that leave a something in the entire time of your life

i hv so many things i wana take up

like:

Driving ( which yes, im seriously considering after all the voices telling me i should )

Photography ( which is something im really keen of )

Graphics ( bcoz its gona be a great help if i know how to execute them rather then only able to convey my ideas but not able to do it hands on myself )

Design ( Yes yes )
other than that a 3rd language ...

but to that, i must of cause set piorities and segment it to struck a balance.

side note :

I JUST CANT STAND PEOPLE WHO ONLY GO ABOUT WANTING THIS BRANDED BAG,THAT BRANDED SHOE..BUT NOT EVEN KNOWING IF THEY ARE ABLE TO CARRY THAT LOOK..*roll eyes* have they truly appreciated what the designer is truly wanting to convey..?-my 2 cent worth of comment-

Dont be what you are not, no matter how you change ur appearance, ur look, ur dressing style, under all that you are just you and people will see thru it no matter what..

2 more months and its 2009
God Bless the world, the economy and the mankind

i need a new phone and a watch..

26.10.08

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

how can someone say i love you very much
and it can be that very person that says I dont love you anymore
cruel isnt it
how can that very heart change ?
how can that very feeling disappear?

seasons change
time change
heart change

i dont get it anymore
and i dont wana get it
...
but i just feel really sad about people around me on how simply they said they dont love the previous and at the next moment found someone new
then how does u separate that love from the other love?

sadly..and of course cruelly
its never that simple
but many a times people dont look things clearer before going to it
..........

the above has nothing with me involved..
its just a heartfelt of the recent happenings around me
leaving me pondering and glad that i always am sure i can nv jump into another "FEELING"
in such a short time...

im seriously tired and just today
i really questioned myself if all this gg the extra miles might in the end
led me to what i should be or wanted
im starting to have doubt
.........................
"If you add a little to a little, and then do it again, soon that little shall be much."-Hesiod

21.10.08

Thursday, October 16, 2008

Its almost coming to an end

an end that we see the harvest
an end we see how we well spent the sleepless hours on
an end to the old phrase and go on with what was like a ticket to what continues then after
..
but a tiny fair bit more before i can use a marker to dot a full stop
i almost couldnt hang on
soo many confusion
soo many how
soo many question marks
soo many i dont know how to anymore
soo many
that i just wanted to operate my brain and remove what shouldnt be there..
I no longer think with my mind
but instead i reshifted the word around
by thinking with the heart
and feeling with the mind

My mind just collapsed
n my heart just sank
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On the lighter note
grad photo
the not so conventional way

and this is how we fool around
gone are the yesterdays
maybe tomorrow's left with a memento scene like that..

16.10.08

Monday, October 13, 2008

Helipad-ED on a sat night
the re-live of liquid room
love the whole place
the ambience,the music
as for the crowd..
well it wasnt that pack so there is still some reservations to what sort of crowd they are
hopefully the next time..

Entrance of Heli..

The interior

my threesome other 2

Mumm Champagne

those shot is such a killer....
that caused memory loss
argh hate it
and this is my very first n last time am gg to be that wasted

thanks to my threesome other 2 for taking cre of me
=)
wana go heli-ing and perhaps try out supper club soon
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hmmmmmmmmm
im half hanging
and i seriously have no idea as to how..

just the other day i saw traces in him..
just the other day

13.10.08

Wednesday, October 08, 2008

not just good looks but owns a great photography skill

....

never fails to make me wana travel to lots more countries everytime i look at all his pictures..

life is all about experiencing the different side of the world..

every inch of it

all you hv to bring along perhaps is just a heart

a heart that appericates

an eye to see

and a listening ears to hear how it sings

life~

Wants and needs start to come together

have u considered not putting those "luxury" stuff before hand

have u forgotten what was it like to just smile simply when presented with a candy or balloon?

dont say you want life simple

for you made ur stand on what u want ur standard of simplicity is

with all the mindwash of all the.LV.Gucci.

have you forgotten how u actually smile?

the smile deep from within..

have u long forgotten??

-a 2 cent worth of thought

you dont actually have to agree

8.10.08

Saturday, October 04, 2008

Picture overflow entry
Usual hangout place with the usual clique plus new friends

Suspect 1-Adrian..

Suspect 2- Haniff (does the girl in white remind u of someone? well she's dit's younger sister )

Suspect 3- Dita, Suspect 4- Linus

Suspect 5- Gina

Whose this? our queen's couture model cum New face finalist- cheryl
New known friends.. lawernce ( does he look familiar? his the macdonald advertisement guy with the huge hand)
God, his complexion is damn good can..and his damn fair
ok la when i took this picture with him before me was adrian n gina
just so to compare how colour difference are we to him
but guess im still almost the same as him
whahaha

magdelene n cindy..(funny ppl)
oh and another one is weiming
doesnt have the photo we took together bcoz he hasnt loaded in facebook yet

A near perfect night if not for some spoiler
but well glad to see soo many people after soo long
haiz too bad LB missed it yet again
pls do make it the next time
which would be either to cele adrian's bday cum a mini farewell for them b4 they fly to taiwan
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Thailand was overall good
but somewhat bcoz of the "business"
i always end up really tired at the end of the day
after all the countless of walking...and adding up to the hot humid weather
by the time im back to the hotel im really drained out

The Night view of land of budhha

lots of such statues commonly seen ard thailand

vendors..

some mini donut store in Chatucak

Central world, Bangkok's largest shopping mall

BIG lifesize heineken

sticky rice with mango (din try it though)

2nd day out sourcing

A&W revisit

I call it the thailand wala wala

whats liveband loving without my stella artois

hot humid weather..shagged out face hidden under the shades

Popsticle

Dinner during day 1

statues in front of great eastern hotel

Tuk Tuk

i have a fetish for old school arm chair and standing lamp

love this shot, taken in the cab
on the way back home

more pictures are loaded up at facebook
those are just some random ones i extract

3months~
am so waiting

missed the lemongrass

and the whole place

wana of cause go back soon

for i havent got enough of chatucak just yet

4.10.08