Ponder, Feel, Walk on...

Saturday, September 27, 2008

Departure Gate
ready
Jetset
Go
Land of Buddha

God Bless
and c ya when im back

many love and misses

27.9.08

Friday, September 26, 2008

Yes yes its F1..

i can hear the roaring sound of the cars speeding pass

its really G.R.E.A.T!!!

but at the same time how much inconvinence it caused to those staying around the race area

and yes yes everyone is crazy over Lewis Hamilton

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never once was i this last minute

I cant believe that im going out of town without a place to stay

I can never imgaine if its the case what was i to do

sleep in the airport?

whatever it is its settled

ITS THE FCUKING FIRST N THE VERY LAST TIME

i was even on a verge to just call it all off

no one can ever understand that pressure

not even YOU!

i really wonder if u ever was panicky that there are chances that there wouldnt be a place to stay

but whatever it is

i really strongly stood to always depending on oneself

thank you harrod, trisha and aunt livia for trying soooo hard to help me with this last minute situation

a big thank you that when u guys are busy working you still are keeping a look out

as for how unhappy i was

seriously doesnt matter anymore

im really sorry that i didnt have a choice to rather i rephrase it i DONT HAVE A CHOICE

i seriously wasnt willing to pay a fcuking 300 for hotel

and i seriously will never do such last mintue stuff

seriously i can only make up by make the balanced money worth

seriously!!

26.9.08

Thursday, September 25, 2008

Why Do People Come Back Out Of The Blue Into Your Life And Thinks Its Perfectly Fine?
No its not.
When you choose to be out and when your back was turned it should have stayed the very way..
but anyway i shall play along n see whats up ur sleeve..

Glad that LB is working hard on her intern..
hmm i was kinda feeling a waste when sherna called that day to tell me abt the offer
but well i lose it but if LB gained its fine for me as well
theres always chances in time
so im fine with it
anyway, I know what you mean girl..
just as what i say the prime now is ur intern, ur FMP so forcus ur light
u dont need to be as explaining in making ppl understand for it never totally will
leave it as it is

like i say when 1 + 1 no longer = 2 but a -2
your many calculations will still be the same
so rather perhaps
its already a"sign"
issues.time.feelings.
all that will iron out the way it want out to be
so let it be

"Truth is incontrovertible, malice may attack it and ignorance may deride it, but, in the end, there it is"- Sir winston churchill

like the balloons let it fly~

25.9.08

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

Having the week term break
but no less fulfilling internship is still in process
but the thought of jet setting off to the land of buddha just make my mood all frisky.
I have been dreaming about it since forever
am thankful that thru sudden discussion n agreement im jet setting off this sat..
will even if its work im happy enough for what linus say ur job is the most fun la, Sourcing=shopping..yaa perhaps it is

Thank you for the kind sponsors people
well put 200percent into getting the stuff back
I just hope to finish Internship soon
and i just wana push the fast forward button to finish degree
but still im rather thankful for the goings so far
everything had been good
going out of the country more than once this year is already a double bonus
plus the whole lot of new found friends
im simply not asking for more and im contented

Im just asking a little weeny bit more is to get the satisfield result at the end of the day to give me a morale boost
making me believe that working the extra mile indeed benefits myself

Im glad i chose to be more earnest n honest to oneself that by not condoning might perhaps benefit both parties
at least I know i made my stand clear

anyway have a great week
and im sure everyone is lookin forward to F1
which im glad im out of town
as it has been causing rather a mess on my bus route as my usual bus will have a few detours which is just somewhat inconvenient for me
but im proud to say that we are capable of putting up such a great spectular stand in such a short time..
(though im cursing for the troublesome part of walking such a far distance to take bus)

have fun people
and god bless

" I define joy as a sustained sense of well-being and internal peace - a connection to what matters." -Oprah Winfrey

PS(sometimes i wonder if there will be such a day where the yesterdays will happen again?sometimes i wonder if people will remember you for how long when you are out of their lives? and sometimes i wonder what kind of a person they see me as in their lives?sometimes i wonder...)

24.9.08

Sunday, September 21, 2008

WineBar-Ed with the clique clang kiang

Alex was soo funny the whole night with his "8 yr old" story that created stares from the tables beside us

Im just glad i went..for lately im really on the verge of breaking down totally..

but anyway im really am done-D with being the " all nice about it " attitude

i wasnt left with a choice, i was forced to the wall.

perhaps we do not have common interest in what we want our end result to be

perhaps you just thought u did ur part

but i rather say its just pointless and of no help for the stuff you did just wasnt so called what we called " with heart"

but rather DOING FOR THE SAKE OF DOING

i really dislike cats n its without doubt for no reason

they have the weirdest attitude, eerie personality

that when u get too close to them

it will send chill down your spine

anyway, im just going about what is within the stuff in my fingers..

im not safekeeping anyone for everyone should be safekeeping themselves

one day i might just say i wana take the backseat

for i have every right to say i did more that what i was suppose to do

and i deserve the right to just seat back and relax

"If you don't want to do something, one excuse is as good as another."- Yiddish Proverb

anyway, LB pls remember what i mentioned

its all about deserving or not

and not about chances

we are not saint

and i guess we should be kinder to oneself more than giving grace to others..

P.S(pls make it for the next outing, coz it seems that we are losing the days of fun times along with the rest which is really sad )

21.9.08

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

Anixiety has found me lately that peace seems to exit and is keeping a distance
I was fed up with myself.
Tired, but still tow on as there is just so much more to finish up..

Tears seems to visit me alot more often than usual and have been keeping me company
Particuarly as i dont know what to say anymore or to deal with it anymore.
There is always a time for chances and faith
but the very same there is disappintments and regrets.
Now thank you for making me realise that one should not harbour too much faith and chances in the hope of trying to do a deed or being perfectly nice about it.

Yesterday once more?
not any..
Farewell Goodie Two Shoe

Im tired of hearing sorry
worthless as it seems to me lately..

"You are the person who has to decide. Whether you'll do it or toss it aside; you are the person who makes up your mind. Whether you'll lead or will linger behind. Whether you'll try for the goal that's afar. Or just be contented to stay where you are.- Edgar A. Guest"

17.9.08

Thursday, September 11, 2008

I have a fetish for maxi dresses

but bcoz of my skinny frame most maxi dress are of strapless

but today i happen to find one that kinda suit me.

was having in mind of getting it for my graduation..

hmm shall keep it in mind and look around first...

伯樂

誰才是你愛情中的伯樂?

"The problems of the world cannot possibly be solved by skeptics or cynics whose horizons are limited by the obvious realities. We need men who can dream of things that never were."-John F.Kennedy

Happy Friday

Joyful weekend

Ellijah Lucas, I likeeeeee ~

11.9.08

Tuesday, September 09, 2008

I've been tearing alot lately
to the songs ive heard
to the shows ive seen
to the stuff i was told
...........................

I almost died on this fateful sunday
i hate to be sick.
...............................

this weekend is occupied.
6 course dinner on sat
grandma's bday on sun
Sunday Night to NUM..im still thinking
if only im able to fully recover..
Adrian's msg : waiting for u to lao hu!
hahaha

happy week people~

"Our subconscious minds have no sense of humor, play no jokes and cannot tell the difference between reality and an imagined thought or image. What we continually think about eventually will manifest in our lives."- Sidney Madwed

9.9.08

Saturday, September 06, 2008

Dine-D at Kim Gary Vivo
Cafe Bumming At West Coast
I so need it after a week of work
totally drained

Orea Cake~

Little thing called wonder..

AGNES B CHOCS from HK

=LOVE=

Guess whats this ?

its written on the top of the tissue holder

i find it applying on some aspect too

"Please Take Only What You Need"

clicking out
time to start on the product mix
argh!!!!!

6.9.08

Friday, September 05, 2008

Movies i wana watch when i have time...

all the above are past movies
that i will dig out to watch soon when i find them

the very first show i damn wana watch is :

AWAY FROM HER

Storyline:

Married for 50 years, Grant (Gordon Pinsent) and Fiona's (Julie Christie) life together is full of tenderness and humour, their serenity broken only by Fiona's restrained references to the past, complicated further by her increasingly evident memory loss. Moving Fiona into a nursing home specializing in Alzheimer's disease, Grant is not allowed to visit for the first month so she can "adjust". When he sees her again, Fiona has forgotten him and turned her affection to Aubrey (Michael Murphy), another resident in the home. Heartbroken, Grant visits daily, bearing witness to the growing bond between her and Aubrey. When Aubrey's wife, Marian (Olympia Dukakis), takes Aubrey home, Fiona becomes deeply depressed, and Grant embarks on the greatest act of self-sacrifice of his life

"sometimes you have to let go of what you cant live without"

COMING SOON!!!!

adding to the list is : The soloist, Marley & Me

( which poster shots are not out yet )

theres more..

but for now its these few i wana watch

5.9.08

Marie Digby
"Miss Invisible"
Theres a girl
Who sits under the bleachers
Just another day eating alone
And though she smiles
There is something she's hiding
And she cant find a way to relate
She just goes unnoticed
As the crowd passes by
And she'll pretend to be busy
When inside she just wants to cry
She'll say...

Chorus

Take a little look at the life of Miss Always Invisible
Look a little closer, I really really want you to put yourself in her shoes
Take another look at the face of Miss Always Invisible
Look a little harder and maybe then you will see why she waits for the day
When you'll ask her her name

In the beginning, in the first weeks of class
She did everything to try and fit in
But the others they couldnt seem to get past all the things that mismatched on the surface
And she would close her eyes when they laughed and she fell down the stairs
And the more that they joked
And the more that they screamed
She retreated to where she is now
And she'll sing...

Chorus

Take a little look at the life of Miss Always Invisible
Look a little harder I really really want you to put yourself in her shoes
Take a little look at the face of Miss Always Invisible
Look a little closer and maybe then you will see why she waits for the day that you will ask her...her name

And one day just the same as the last
Just the days spent in counting the time
Came a boy who sat under the bleachers just a little bit further behind...

"In 3 words, I can sum up everything I've learnt about life:it goes on"- Robert Frost

~if you know what i mean~

happy weekend~

5.9.08

Thursday, September 04, 2008

Work was pretty much fine
the people there are nice basically
my post according to Mr Harrod is called Assistant Designer
but im not framing myself with that name rather i keep it as "Assisting THE designer"
Those 2 days i have been kept busy with sorting of fabrics making sure the whole box is scanned and amending the size to keep it standardized and neat

then i have to look thru tons of magazines in search of fall/winter 0809 print ads from various brands and at the same time do up the course schedules in visual forms.
why am i doing all that? for what purpose u might ask..
well basically all the above stuff ive done will be placed on a TV screen just right at the door of our office..
( will show the surrounding of the office soon )
its kinda stress free so far bcoz i do not really have datelines in submitting the work in hand

but ive already finished doing up the schedule and half way thru the print ads..
u must be thinking..paying soo little why do so much?

well bcoz i wana see what i will be given next and also it will help in gaining more exposure, the more hands on you are the better and the more stuff you are exposed to the better, i don wan to do a 320 hours internship learning nothing out of the company,
im exchanging my peanut pay for the things i will learn at the end of the day
one good thing about it is i get to see updated magazine for free
and i mean those magazine that we wont usually bare to spend on like 9.90 for an in style mag, or 10bucks for a GQ mag.. i can read it all for free..

hahhaa call me cheapskate but a good 10 bucks could be well spend on some other stuff
anyway i made up my mind to work 4 full days a week hoping to earn about 90bucks..
so 4 weeks is ard 360plus *pout*
but if i learnt something out of it at the end of the day then fine with the pay..
its internship anyway..
and i did seriously considered continuing after the 32ohours, but that is IF my schedule for school is flexible.
hmm shall seee in time...

My work desk..
notice the starbucks paper cup, well we have free flow of 3 in 1 coffees, tea, milo, cereal, even biscuits....hahahhahaha

Thats the life of 2 working days so far
will update more stuff about work soon..

on the side track my ache is becoming really constant lately and each time its getting more n more intolerable..
yet im not prepared to find out the course..
and and and Im having a fetish lately...
hahahhaaaaa hahahahahahaa

I wana do soo many things in between working days and doing FMP
like going to Helipad..
like attending a friend's bday which is soon..( still havent replied my attendance )
like the NUM fashion show on the 14th..
like going to JB for seafood
like meeting up with my different cliques..like Jodi,Jo mama(whom is pregnant now..hee), celine and family,Jess, Gina, Adrian and the guys..
like going to zouk and butter
like more movie loving, cafe sitting
and of course
LIKE BANGKOK SHOPPING!!!!!!!!

Im trying to make the best outta of time
and hopefully im able to slot them in between here n there
but of course i clearly know my piorities now
is to finish internship.. work on FMP... and try to filter all stuff and lessen the load by next module
for next module is just so screwed with the rescheduled of Styles & Trend, Textile and FMP and yaa internship!!!
but well im sure i can do it..
the workaholic me..
=)

PS( LB, im praying for u.. god will reply u very soon, so wait a little bit more k)

oh ya, i really am addicted to this,

Have been eating this for 2 days..hehehheheheeeeeeeeeeeee fish and chip
but don expect alot its only 2.20 after all
but i like..

its THURS
1 day to TGIF
and i confess i havent work on the product mix yet
for im really tired when i get home plus the constant ache..
will get them started by thur and done by sun and weekend is FMP day again..
Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

no doubt i still love how things turned out and i still think 2008 is treating me kindly so far.(never mind the bums here n there)
thank god!

" In truth, man is not made to be trusted for life if secured against all liability to account. "-Thomas Jefferson to A. Coray, 1823

The title"my tiger my heart'' by the boys least likely to, brought back some yesterdays..

4.9.08

Monday, September 01, 2008

Well have been hearing about this place lately

will go by soon

Wee~

having the need to dress up to the nines

a breathtaking view

just the right place to sip your glass of wine

and the wind blowing by

looking on as the world go by

only for the beautiful people

Helipad

thats what we are talking about..

1.9.08

So sat was spent dining at Kim Gary at vivo then off to town to watch movie

was choosing between wall-e, and mad about english

but movie tickets were sold out and the next time slot was just too late

((really can never catch a movie during weekend, tickets are always damn fast selling and it can never be a last min thing to do.. else u will never end up watching the show that u want))

and in the end , we bought a 12am show watching Boy Over Flowers,Final

well the show wast that bad i must say.

so before the show, there was still time therefore we end up at spinelli

Midnight meat train is the show i wana catch next
and i just cant wait to go for the 6 course dinner this week

well working later right after school
may everything be fine

happy monday loves~

1.9.08