Sunday, August 17, 2008
My heart just totally sank
and utterly was disappointed.
I seriously dont like being a bitch, the bad person,
and even till the worst a paranoid person.
Time and again i really wondered whats in the head of u people
time and again i really am soo wishing your would really be by now having the heart to be into the situation.
but sadly i see none..
you do when u are told what to, but didnt even bother asking
AND even expect intructions to do it the right way.
Look, i dont owe this stuff myself or u guys any tasks to keep giving u the direction n pushing and chasing for stuff
Cant u by now see that we are really in deep miles away by what we should actually be doing n not just the foundation of it.
How can i actually make ur feel that we seriously need to head somewhere
or else in time we seriously will just panick our feet off
..
I was angered not for no reason
tell me if im wrong..
1)
Ask urself if u did enough, Im not even asking u to do extra im just asking u to fulfill n submit whatever by dateline is that too demanding?
and the dateline is not just for fun i did so bcoz i did put into consideration that if i put it on the day before monday if theres amendment we r unable to do it on time.
..and that meant presenting the wrong stuff and then we hv to go thru another week in amending it before we can move on..is that what we all want to keep running in circles..?
my dateline isnt given a day before the due date, it was 4 days before
if there was a problem or some difficulty did u guys even bother asking for help or to bother finding a solution.. or even communicate..
Ive got nothing from any of u guys..asking for help
Im not a nanny or a babysitter so dont expect people to give u directions and instruction, it is also ur job to
ASK!!!
DONT MAKE IT LOOK LIKE YOU ARE NOT INVOLVED AND ITS NOT YOUR BUSINESS!
its not mine too, for all i care i could just jolly well do my part and not even bother..
2) im human too i know we need time off, if u know for example u are planning to go out, isnt it logically to finish your part get it sent ? and not find all sorts of excuses as of why u cant do it on time..
We all have a life but i dont see why you cant do it..
Dont tell me you are busier than the ppl who are working but able to juggle and try their best to do their part even if it might not be perfect..
3) when u did ur part, did u actually even bother to do ur very best n minimise the errors so that the person Compiling it would have an easier job, why that dateline is also bcoz the person compiling will need time to arrange n do amendment too..
put yourself in the person's shoe, they might not need to do that but when they do all they ask of u is to give them minimal errors, if u give ur part just for the sake of it and in the end the person amends a huge part of it , is it right to say the marks n credit should go to that person?
by then don blame anyone for claiming the credit bcoz u didnt deserve it..
Im not saying my work is perfect, thats why i did ASk if theres anything i missed out..
DID I not?
4) Im not arguing or pissed for no valid reason, bcoz im not mad in the head and i already know what could happen in time
like next module will be a harder time to juggle and as most would be occupied wif internship n there will even be harder to not fulfill task in time thats WHY IM SOO PRECIOUSLY HOLDING ON TO THIS MONTH to clear whatever the foundation n get into all the head of yours what u are doing...
so that when we are in next term hopefully would be less tense..
but too bad kisss that thought away bcoz its hard work al the way frm now onwards bcoz we wasted enough...
5) When we set a day for meetings, isnt it logical that it might take a while to finish, it might mean doing whatever, unlike other groups we are really not meeting alot together..and everytime theres ppl missing.. is that alot to ask for to give that timeslot out and nt do other stuff or come for the meeting and is nt prepared to give updates, or even bother to do abit on ur part to reasearch some stuff and just sitting down there simply clueless.
if we are so wasting ur time Im sorry.. for making u tink its such a waste of time to meet everytime but aimlessly, WHY?bcoz on ur part did u even go home to think of ways or even try to lighten or give quality help?
Why should i bother n squeeze my brain juice on what next how next when u ppl just feel the meeting is pointless and draggy and waste of time..
I Offically declare im on the FUCK care mode
i will do what is within my need my part and ppl deserving my help..
other then that im DONED with covering unnessary asses ...
screwed up, panick?
ton loads in time...
get used to it
Nobody is undispensable to anybody..Whats left of an angels are afterall pathetic smiles that in time become disappointment..IM DONED!!and
I SO MEAN IT with captial letter
Dislike?hatred?
well when you are finally tolerating and tolerating and convincing n convincing urself to give trust that it will iron out what overcomed you was the huge sank in the heart that you just burst into tearsbcoz you can do so much n this much..and if those harsh words hurt..have u even sit down n place ur hand at where ur heart is to feel how it beats mine beats the same way too
but it just sank.deep under
17.8.08