Friday, July 18, 2008

Lately Im having sleepless nights
not that im emo-ing about anything
but i just couldnt seem to be sleeping on the normal hours
was channel switching over at SCV
and i came across a movie at hallmark
titled: Fielder's choice

the story goes like this:

Ambitious young advertising man Phillip Fielder (Chad Lowe) has no time for relationships, and seems to have affection only for his creature comforts -- a source of great dismay for his erstwhile girlfriend, Holly Ford (Marin Hinkle). When his orphaned nephew, an autistic eight-year-old named Zachary (K'Sun Ray), comes to live in Phillip's lavish apartment, Phillip wants no part of surrogate fatherhood and tries to pass the youngster along to his cousin Rose (Miriam Flynn), who happens to live near a group home for special children. But Zach nixes this idea and insists upon living with Phillip, thus throwing together two extremely self-absorbed, obsessive-compulsive characters under one roof. This being a Hallmark Channel presentation, Fielder's Choice will undoubtedly work its way toward a happy and heartwarming finale, though it definitely takes some doing!

Im always a sucker when its movies about family,kinship and usually such shows will end up having me tearing..
perhaps to me i feel even the more for kinship..nt that im more cold blooded in love..

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another thing;
lately was talking to LB about some matters of the heart ( not just about love ) but life and how ppl to ppl define how the love they felt was like and expressed
we just agreed that as long as the person we loved was alive and living well its better as compared to them passing on so suddenly

life goes on, yes it just does and things would not change but by moving on things doesnt change as well dont they?
as a matter of fact you know all along its with u as u move on just a matter of time as usually it will lessen the thought about it but never will you forgetting it

When 2 person part ways,
ppl usually would say he/she will be at loss to not wanting you
u are too deserving for him/her to leave u its his/her loss
The very fact was there was this once when the eyes, the heart and the mind of both are leveled
so its not true that whoever is nt deserving to whoever
its time that they lose to..
its changes that they lose to..
and its cruelly perhaps reality and idealistic that they lose to...

Define love when you know the heart usually rule
Define life when you know that the goings, the happenings, the havings and the changings is the norms for you to get by and go thru

Define yourself?
perhaps soul searching, pondering, thinking to constanting tell and remind urself what is going on.
and not forgetting the beholders to see the things you couldnt see..
that would define you.

at the end of the day, u answer ur own deeds ,ur inner self and also at the same time the loves..


God bless
Its friday

Chilling out
good company
many love
=)


P.S(I was dumbfounded for once i swear, it ws the 1st time i was this unsure that i can reassure myself that it wont happen..OH MY GODDDDDD!! )

18.7.08