Tuesday, July 29, 2008
All Ive Got Is Nothing But The Waitings Off MeTime is ticking
I can hear it clearly
Aimlessly is not good at this point of time
I loathe and Darn it
I really am hoping for my phone to ring
from the unknown numbers
Im really just hoping its gona get somewhere
Im Just closing my eyes and hope you will hear and reply me
The Man Above
I seek
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"Avoidance Is Period"
was reading a girl's blog
how she deeply missed her love after he passed on
my heart pinched
imgaine the heartache that girl was going thru, unbearable ! i guess
tears circulated my eyes
a particular entry :
"I was at baby's house on Sunday.
I've this indescribable mixed feeling.
Every time i was there,
it brings back so much memories that tears my heart.
I cried every time i had to walk that lonely path to his house,
dry my tears and wear a smile when i reach.
I sat on his spot, i smell his blanket,
i let my fingertips run through
his lanyard collections, the airplane badges . .
i reminisced the times we were at the house" ..............................................................................Aunty came to sit beside me and spoke to me.She told me she didn't know what to say to me,that we are both going through that very immenseheart pain, that kind of excruciating heartache.that no 3rd person understand the extend of our pain.I understand her. I agree with her.I didn't know what to say to alleviate her pain.tears welled up in both of our eyes, threatening to fall.I didn't allow them to fall, and i won't,cause i know aunty was fighting hard to hold hers back.I want to be as brave as aunty.Yes, we cry every night before we sleep,and morning when we rise.It's going to be that way for a long timetill we finally know how to let go . . .
My tears flows as i read this particular entry
how bad it felt but was even more worst when you hv to contain n surpass that emotion in order to not affect the ppl around you
all i hope of her was
in time her heavy heart will lighten a fair bit
and that her smile tagged on the face of hers will glow once more
cherish if you could
but at the same time be truthful and ernest
the least you could do for one is at least be frank abt the heart of yours to them
29.7.08