Thursday, July 31, 2008
31.7.08
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All Ive Got Is Nothing But The Waitings Off Me
Time is ticking
I can hear it clearly
Aimlessly is not good at this point of time
I loathe and Darn it
I really am hoping for my phone to ring
from the unknown numbers
Im really just hoping its gona get somewhere
Im Just closing my eyes and hope you will hear and reply me
The Man Above
I seek
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"Avoidance Is Period"
was reading a girl's blog
how she deeply missed her love after he passed on
my heart pinched
imgaine the heartache that girl was going thru, unbearable ! i guess
tears circulated my eyes
a particular entry :
"I was at baby's house on Sunday.
I've this indescribable mixed feeling.
Every time i was there,
it brings back so much memories that tears my heart.
I cried every time i had to walk that lonely path to his house,
dry my tears and wear a smile when i reach.
I sat on his spot, i smell his blanket,
i let my fingertips run through
his lanyard collections, the airplane badges . .
i reminisced the times we were at the house"
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Aunty came to sit beside me and spoke to me.
She told me she didn't know what to say to me,that we are both going through that very immenseheart pain, that kind of excruciating heartache.
that no 3rd person understand the extend of our pain.
I understand her.
I agree with her.
I didn't know what to say to alleviate her pain.tears welled up in both of our eyes, threatening to fall.
I didn't allow them to fall, and i won't,cause i know aunty was fighting hard to hold hers back.
I want to be as brave as aunty.
Yes, we cry every night before we sleep,and morning when we rise.It's going to be that way for a long timetill we finally know how to let go . . .
My tears flows as i read this particular entry
how bad it felt but was even more worst when you hv to contain n surpass that emotion in order to not affect the ppl around you
all i hope of her was
in time her heavy heart will lighten a fair bit
and that her smile tagged on the face of hers will glow once more
cherish if you could
but at the same time be truthful and ernest
the least you could do for one is at least be frank abt the heart of yours to them
Thurs was post Queens Couture celebration
Lunch over at the Cathy
Jap Resturant (dont rem the name)
ambience wasnt that bad
then off to town to meet Gina and Adrian
Cafe Sitting
as it was getting kinda meaningless
decided to catch the movie
"wedding daze"
the whole time Gina is telling me its a sign its a sign
=_=
Wedding DazE~
Frisky Friday
first to Dita's dome
ZOUKIE JUNKIE HIGH!!!
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Was Browsing polyore and those are my favorite items
Little Nothings
lots in mind lately
not very much about being upset
rather a penny of thought, reflection?
view of point?
well whatever its called..
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Firstly,
im really panicking about internship
like frankly i freaking need to be working and fulfilling the hours
320hours to be done-D is way alot
and by 3 months
not working all day
how is that possible..
OMG seriously
whoever company reply me plsssssssssss
then comes FMP, we have chosen edmund ooi
personally i love his design its the Very ME i call it
Avdent garde kind..
the collections of his is like i likeeeeeeeeeee
the colours is also wad i loved
Im soo praying we will do his label and everything would run smooth and turn out well...
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Secondly
Disappointment really hit me really hard
I was in fact even the more wanting to prove the worth in the eyes of urs
in time..
an immature comment just showed how brainless you were when u are handling matters..
to that i lose all the respect
to that i wished that for once i wasnt that softheartened
to that all the best in time...
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Thirdly
I was being torn as to listen to the outer force or still standby with my rationale
i was this once uncertain
but i know
like always and before i leave them all to time..
to understand to relish and to acknowledge
People dont just go about adapting and changing as time goes..
but because there was a reason in doing so therefore the changes was uninvitable
I believe a confidante would be one whom tell u the ugliest fact and compliment you the truth..
I believe what i called besties would be when i see them around when unexpected crisis hit my life..
=)
They dont know you anymore??
or perhaps all along they thought they did?
Now stand strong and if all it takes is to leave them by all means
in life you dont please or keep a person because you feel sorry about ditching the friendship
but instead ask yourself if the so called friendship was worth that many year in just seconds
saying : I dont know you no more...
Sat was simply loveeeeee
first to grannies
then off to town meeting the usuals
which i named as "Clique, Clan, Kiang"
when we have enough dose of liveband
we decided that sat night would be a waste if we were to just head home
therefore we decided to catch a movie
time then was around 1 am
but all movies then was sold out
therefore we decided to watch a 3am show
P2
one word GROSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!
half the time me and dit is covering our eyes
i never liked horror/killing/thriller movies
worst becoz of the wait time , friends of mine decided to talk abt ghostly encounter
try watching horror movie at 3am in an almost empty cinema
with the ghostly encounter and the movie
i was by then tramatised
i totally didnt sleep well ....
my mind is totally too weak as my imagination would run wildly
but i had lots of fun and am happy to have them
picture upload soon...
God pls grant me an intern place
Amen~
time is ticking and am soo panicking
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define fine
define ok
well definition is one of its own to define
set loose of ownself and further from the thoughts entangled
when u move far u see nothing but blurred vision
but then at the same time ur heart n mind is sober
-my 2 cent worth of thoughts
today im telling me this..
"Blissed is in the eyes simply depending on individual's definition"
Lately Im having sleepless nights
not that im emo-ing about anything
but i just couldnt seem to be sleeping on the normal hours
was channel switching over at SCV
and i came across a movie at hallmark
titled: Fielder's choice 
the story goes like this:
Ambitious young advertising man Phillip Fielder (Chad Lowe) has no time for relationships, and seems to have affection only for his creature comforts -- a source of great dismay for his erstwhile girlfriend, Holly Ford (Marin Hinkle). When his orphaned nephew, an autistic eight-year-old named Zachary (K'Sun Ray), comes to live in Phillip's lavish apartment, Phillip wants no part of surrogate fatherhood and tries to pass the youngster along to his cousin Rose (Miriam Flynn), who happens to live near a group home for special children. But Zach nixes this idea and insists upon living with Phillip, thus throwing together two extremely self-absorbed, obsessive-compulsive characters under one roof. This being a Hallmark Channel presentation, Fielder's Choice will undoubtedly work its way toward a happy and heartwarming finale, though it definitely takes some doing!
Im always a sucker when its movies about family,kinship and usually such shows will end up having me tearing..
perhaps to me i feel even the more for kinship..nt that im more cold blooded in love..
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another thing;
lately was talking to LB about some matters of the heart ( not just about love ) but life and how ppl to ppl define how the love they felt was like and expressed
we just agreed that as long as the person we loved was alive and living well its better as compared to them passing on so suddenly
life goes on, yes it just does and things would not change but by moving on things doesnt change as well dont they?
as a matter of fact you know all along its with u as u move on just a matter of time as usually it will lessen the thought about it but never will you forgetting it
When 2 person part ways,
ppl usually would say he/she will be at loss to not wanting you
u are too deserving for him/her to leave u its his/her loss
The very fact was there was this once when the eyes, the heart and the mind of both are leveled
so its not true that whoever is nt deserving to whoever
its time that they lose to..
its changes that they lose to..
and its cruelly perhaps reality and idealistic that they lose to...
Define love when you know the heart usually rule
Define life when you know that the goings, the happenings, the havings and the changings is the norms for you to get by and go thru
Define yourself?
perhaps soul searching, pondering, thinking to constanting tell and remind urself what is going on.
and not forgetting the beholders to see the things you couldnt see..
that would define you.
at the end of the day, u answer ur own deeds ,ur inner self and also at the same time the loves..
God bless
Its friday
Chilling out
good company
many love
=)
P.S(I was dumbfounded for once i swear, it ws the 1st time i was this unsure that i can reassure myself that it wont happen..OH MY GODDDDDD!! )
School has finally started
Final Major Project for Graduation
Internship internship internship
Style n trend module
busy busy busy
work, FMP, assignment
Im just treasuring the free time now
till the busy lifestyle hit me soon to come
Im soo waiting for replies now
God Bless
and wish me luck and tons of fun while learning
not forgetting Im fine for now
many loves
its mid week
Im soo looking forward to doing this 3 things
POPEYE-ing
JB Seafood-ing ( hopefully soooooon )
and of cause
Indochine, LiveBand-ing
Life blows moments away with beloved company, drinks and tons of laughter..
thus Cest La vie~
Its been a long while since i set my arse down that chair and blog about the this and that of
"Whats Going On with the so called mundane life of mine"
many things changes
in a way far better
far and away better than what i made out to be
seriously,
the days with MSO was still fresh in mind
the knowings of the new friends
im truly appeciative about the whole goings
Days that i missed greatly working on MSO ( which i cant use words to ever describe that feeling )
the July 1st that i finally walked and brave away and drift apart with,FINALLY
the hanging out with my bud the whole afternoon
the chillout, the bum intos
and of cause the hospital visits
in all those above,
it teaches me nothing but the heart of mine no longer just lingered with the past, and the yesterdays of what i thought would be hard to forgo
small thoughts make me treasure greatly
especially when im going thru bad times
they just came at the right time
I weep that night for i know i no longer have a reason anymore to convince myself to look out for your goings and happenings, they aint mine to worry or look out to anymore
i miss the bedtime stories..
but I dont miss you anymore
"Past the Point of No return, No Back Glances Our Make Believe Is At An End"
thank you, goodbye
