Ponder, Feel, Walk on...

Wednesday, October 31, 2007

Sitted down in the school library alone today..
was doing up stuff for market research n buying..
The unsoundly tense feeling overcomed my entire mind n body bringing shiver down the spine.
I cant describe in words those tension..not coz the air con is blasting..
but that sense of challenge im facing myself with.
i cant explain...
not because im putting it on death sentance but it juz seems that im letting it go with a big huge sigh..well in some ways..
Im still fighting...
aimlessly??
or juz doing it for oneself?
never thought of giving it up without even trying my outmost yet to amend..
i juz seriously thought the whole thing is still miles away...
and it isnt a good thing...
Today marks the end of yet another month....

All well wishes and hope, more or less causes my set of pressure..
and it only forces me to want it to be even far better..
I know that disppointed would be a deadly one.. that i cant explain how affected it would get me..
sooo i really really pray that disappointed wouldnt be my outcome..coz it really would be a huge blow...

Its not jelously but its juz a self awareness that i should do it far better....well or maybe its a sign to say no its not at all what i thought out to be..
which is?

31.10.07

Saturday, October 27, 2007

Part of the shoot was done..
Got the photos the very night...
The result is satisfying...
Though a few of the shots aint ideal..
but its juz a few..
in which we gona retake them this evening..
and finish the rest...
Its really hard for me to shortlist the ones to load up the webbie coz we have really handful of great shots in juz an individual take for each clothes..
soo it took me quite awhile to finalise them..
Consulted L.B if it was ideal..
Well its a good one today..
though we are drained n stuffy at the end of the day.

Now its to crack my head for the description to match up for my pictures...
will show the fine piece soon..
Credits really really really goes to my 2 besties for their great shot..

Clicking out....

27.10.07

Friday, October 26, 2007

Stuff and hassles were as usual...
Busy is always the word constantly heard...
Well but im still able to breath juz a teeny weeny bit...
Our webbie is done but not quite DONE DONE..coz we still aint really satisfield..
we are still like amending it here n there...
I didnt go for web lecture today..
and L.B is complaining about the whole stupid lesson...
anyway meet up with her and my friend,G to get my mannequin for the shoot later..
argh its heavy..
and i think we are gona take quite awhile to finish the shot..
well hope it will run smoothly
ad the "feel" is satisfying...

Upcoming months plus..
2 test next week...
Fash bash event on the 24 nov..
projects project project..
well im ok...
coz thats what i should by now get use of...

I clearly know its just a smokescreen....
Ya it is..
but why am i somehow feeling abit disappointed..didnt it turn out to be what i wanted...
or actually in some way im actually hoping for something...

26.10.07

Monday, October 22, 2007

Karma..
Good karma
Bad Karma
Well well well
I always believe what goes around comes around
Well sometimes u are really left with asking urself question when a bad happens what u have done to deserve such stuff..
but when a good happens seldom would people be complaining about it..
weird isnt it but thats how it work..
people usually remembers the bad n enlarge it..
whereby the good is like long gone and vividly rememebered..
should it really be that way..

The old has revisited, but would the old be the same like before..
personally it doesnt anymore...

To me, i make it a point to already walk away....
and not get entangled in it..
so till now when the old suddenly revisit I dont wana eat into the box and get myself in a wholesome of stuff to entangle again...

I dont wana read too much into a small gesture...
so i will simply take it as being nice...

I walk out n away that time..
soo i should for now stick to walking away still...

I didnt say i shut it out, but i dont wana read tooo much abt it..
Im leaving it like a clear chapter...
when i flip that next page, then i will know how that story continues...
I dont wana imagine a scenario or even to have the slightest ponder...

A choice, a chore ??
well it doesnt really matter anymore..

22.10.07

Friday, October 19, 2007

Busy to blog lately
if not its coz im darn tired..
and i am..
worst im sick...
well its not the right time to be sick now..
I juz cant afford to..
I have soo much stuff up in hand
I have soo much plce to run to.
I have soo much stuff to settle..
Flu,cough and running a temperture..
Plus cracking my head for the shoot...
argh! im really sooo darn tired and i really cant describe what im gg thru now..

My long awaited is slowly nearing me..
and freakly the tension is slower going up my neck...
the fear and the excitement all mixed up...

God make me well again coz i still have soo much stuff to do...
God make what that long waited of mine worth that result..
God most importantly bless me and the people ard me to have their rightful "simple" stuff they wana go abt doing...

Thats abt all..
I need to sleep..
really...
but can i sleep soundly...i really hope so..

clicking out...

* Im on the extreme to give it my all..to really bet it on that long waited in two weeks time..
will it be do or die..I really dare not think...but on the other hand my heart is going all out desiring
that it will be the one we wanted it to be*

19.10.07

Tuesday, October 16, 2007

SINGAPORE FASHION WEEK 07

12to21 OCT

The 2 event that i very much wana go:

Event:Wrap Party
Venue:Zouk Club
Time:9pm

Date:18 Oct 07
The closing party to celebrate the efforts of all who have contributed to the Singapore Fashion Week 2007.

followed by:

Event:DARE TO
Venue:Zouk Club
Time:9pm

Date:19 Oct 07
The unconventional styles of new name designers will be presented in an exuberant showing of cutting edge fashion. Designers showing are POSSE, harryhalim and Kovit Ang.

POSSE= MAddy's label...woooooooo ahhhhhhh!!

I wana go.....

Who got invites??? I want..heheheeeee

Nothing much...doing up the stuff with LB for buying..

trying very much to get the "feel"

well soo far the feel is there...but nt satisfield with it juz yet...

The codes,HTML and sutff is driving L.B nuts..well i cant do much of that stuff when it comes to web design soooo gona try to make up wif handling other stuff ya..=)

love L.B coz she is doing a great job on the webbie, the "feel" and all i noe im fussy but we noe the "feel" we clearly wanted right...the fruit of it will be woohoo..

Back to school later in the afternoon..

gona have a long school week...

still got lots of unsettled stuff..

cracking my head for the shoot..

my mannequins nt solved yet..

grrrrrr..

pls iron out sooon......

thats about all..

clicking out..

have a gd week all my lovely peeps..

P.S we will be relishing the journey and recounting the steps we once take... The last laugh will be on us.. cheers!!

16.10.07

Sunday, October 14, 2007

Sat went to Lime Flea market wif L.B to see what they have got..

Well didnt find anything great about it...

Was drizzling soo partly spoilt the whole mood..

then cruise down bukit timah..

haiz a wasted trip..

the bus we waited from there was freakly long...had a long bus ride..

and we kinda talk alot..

well i juz feel tat me and L.B kinda can think what each other wana say or convey...

which is good..=)

everyone needs accessable conversation and making every conversation or a certain understanding to a certain stuff is hard...

To have a likeminded, smooth flowing conversation isnt an everyday thing or to everyone u can have that kind of "skin deep" kinda talk.....

Im troubled..abt the shoot..

argh!!

any solution...?!

well saw the rough layout..

good job love.. <3>

its the "feel" yaa..

haha..

Will we have that last laugh??

we shall see and look forward to..

you know what i mean....

im counting the steps as much as u do too..

Lets count them together..

Back to work..

* Things that can wait will always be waiting.. its just a matter of when it is and where it is...*

14.10.07

Saturday, October 13, 2007

Cruised school for lecture..
Had yvonne yet again..
Blessing in disguise...
well kinda slowly getting her teaching method...so everything is still digestive..
Was really busy lately with Buying...
Has been sitting dwn wif L.B alot lately and the countless runnings ard to source for "treasure" and it is nt as fun as it seems to be..
Shopping is fun when u are buying what u fancy but to buy stuff to try to fit the mass appeal its kinda really a challenge plus its even harder when we see alot of stuff we liked but to cross down to the few..ewwww its tough....
But we had fun.....
Still very much in process... Alot more to source for..
and we are giving our very best coz we wanted it to be a long run thing..we really hope it will work out..
Welll went to suntec to yet again source for stuff... didnt really get any(which we nv habour too much hope off anyway)

haha.. Goof ard Toys R Us..hahaa....

Was suppose to join friends to zouk but decided nt to, was too tired n didnt have a thing for it today.well i wana save that money for other stuff right now..soo gona cut tat clubbing to once a month....which i thnk its gona bee tat way coz i forsee that i will be really tied up wif stuff...
Looking forward to the HK trip in 2 months time.....

Saw the 5o gorgeous this yr...Was kinda disappointing..
If u were to say choose among it then the ones i box it in black are the ones i thought is nt bad..
One of them is my friend though haha..
*Whistles* F23 Shirleen Foo..

Came across some blog..haiz juz cant seem to stand some gals...
what is the living earth becoming...
is it gona perish like soon....

*shake heads*

P.S= L.B, we muz be pretty pretty yet capable too ya.. =)

Dolling up dressing up is a muz for us...

Gona run around today.. location Lime flea then to bukit timah...

Clicking out..

13.10.07

Wednesday, October 10, 2007

First day of school..
haa..
well was ok...
Lecture was conducted by FM's head of department..
Lecture was Fashion Communication make it understood easier how to be a good Public Relation...
Shant say much abt what its abt in the first lesson but i like one particular phase:
" Public relations practise the DELIBRATE, planned and sustained effort to establish and maintain mutual understanding between the organisation and the public."
DELIBRATE = to a purpose..haha i like how that word was used bcoz without denial PR also kind of round up how people to people work their way around one another...

Another L.B's haircut(after highlight and styling) it wasnt that bad as i thought...
Just neeed time to get use to it thats all..
Well I think she resemble the Anna Sui dollies.haha

WORST!! L.B is sooooo funny she actually put this:

"修百世方可同舟渡，修千世方能共枕眠。前生五百次的凝眸，换今生一次的擦肩"
as her msn nick..
=_______=
Very Cheena CAN !plus i think shes thinking of becoming a nun wanabe...
I must call her shi ju...
i just cant help laughing when i see that nick lah...
SHI JU!

Ok sidetrack..Always wanted to post up some influential great Asian designers that im kind of proud of them as fellow Asian. Being really well-known and dizzling in the fashion scene..
First up today..

I PROUDLY PRESENT this man..my pioneer of RAffles design Institute..
MR ASHLEY ISHAM!! =) A Singaporean, shining brightly in the international fashion scene...KUdoS!!

Alright thats aboout all today...
Life is slowly going back to the track of busy busy busy like a beeeeeeeee.....

God bless...

clicking out------->

10.10.07

Monday, October 08, 2007

Its official back to school tomorrow..
Finally can see my L.B and the rest of my girls..*grins*
Looking forward to see L.B's hair..
Hope i can hold my laughter coz she is really sad abt it thru out the whole 2 weeks break..
Well lessons is 4 days a week..but not that bad bcoz no long lesson from morning till evening soo it should be ok I hope *cross fingers*

I pray that everything would be better this term..
May we get better lecturers..*which i dont really pin alot of hope on*

Ok shall chest out (nt much chest though haha)

Stomach in..

Heads up high..

and get ready to go back to school..

Ding dong~

May this term be fun...

I pray I pray I pray....

8.10.07

Highrised building..
Beaming lights that blinded the eyes of mine..
I once again think that the whole place around me is spinning...
Things got blurry..
Noise got louder...
Soon i no longer stood firmly and i fall sitted on the ground..

By then i looked up everything has overpowered me..the building is tall, the lights are far away and the noise drifted away...

I was still walking..but you have longed run far in front of me...

I was still trying to adjust a clearer vision but u have yet again disappeared from the sight of it...

One step i went nearer 3 steps u went further...

Love never took its turns to a rounded corner unless from the start u did thought that u wanted them to run in circles...

The right kind of wrong and the wrong kind of right...

To fall in love..

To fall out f love...

One that sneaks up to the heart of yours that makes it beat..

One that makes you sweet yet bitter to bits...

Love, the heartbreaker or the sweetmaker...

I TOOK OFF TO LEAVE..

THAT CHOICE WAS MADE BUT IT MIGHT BE MEANT TO BE BROKEN..

TILL I MEET UP WITH TIME..

TILL I MEET UP WITH WHATS SUPPOSELY WORTH FOR THE BOTH OF US TO CALL MINE...

lOVE IS mORE tHAN me aND yOU!!

8.10.07

Sunday, October 07, 2007

Went out with my besties yest night..
njoyed ourselves and at the same time too, kinda help a galfriend celebrate her bday..
Bummed into a friend whom juz returned from HK after working there for half a year...
Was really excited and all when we saw each other..
Haaa...
Well was bitching wif him abt hk n stufff abt hows life like working over there and all
then also of cause very much about fashion and then he mentioned H&M..AWWW~
have been hearing alot abt this brand since it first opens its doors like a few months back in hk..
Which i first got to know abt it frm a hk friend..
we were going ga ga abt the stuff sold there n he was telling me to go to the central branch instead of the other 2,( cant remember the other 2 location)
and the attire he was wearing last nite was frm H & M..OMG!! I cant wait to shop there.....
I dont think the clothes would be that bad since madonna was very much part of the designing team of H&M...

I wana buy boots, haha wana look pretty pretty and stylo stylo when i go to hk...
Well i dont know how to explain, when i went to hk like 4 yrs ago u juz kind of have the thing to dress up and look real good coz everyone else is dressing up to the nines..
hahaaa
ANd all this while i have been looking for my ideal boots but i juz cant find one that really makes me wana buy them,otherwise if not it's tooo costly..haiz

Boots boots where are u?

Schools starting next tues...
welll may things be smooth and not be as bad as the last 2 term....

Alright thats about all
Clicking out...

XOXO =)

7.10.07

Friday, October 05, 2007

傻瓜

其实他做的坏事我们都懂
没有什么不同
眼光闪烁暧昧流动
闭上眼当作听说

其实别人的招数我们都懂
没有什么不同
故作软弱撒娇害羞
只是有一点别扭

傻瓜也许单纯地懂
爱得没那么做作
爱上了我不保留

傻瓜我们都一样
被爱情伤了又伤
相信这个他不一样
却又再一次受伤

傻瓜我们都一样
受了伤却不投降
相信付出会有代价
代价只是一句傻瓜

其实别人的招数我们都懂
没有什么不同
故作软弱撒娇害羞
只是有一点别扭

傻瓜也许单纯地懂
爱得没那么做作
爱上了我不保留

傻瓜我们都一样
被爱情伤了又伤
相信这个他不一样
却又再一次受伤

傻瓜我们都一样
受了伤却不投降
相信付出会有代价
代价只是一句傻瓜

傻瓜我们都一样
被爱情伤了又伤
相信这个他不一样
却又再一次受伤

傻瓜我们都一样
受了伤却不投降
相信付出会有代价
代价只是一句傻瓜

Was sending this song to a friend, and i told her it sounded soo us...
she says her other friend also sent her the very same song n said that very same thing to her..

I like this sentance especially:
"傻瓜也许单纯地懂爱得没那么做作爱上了我不保留 "
"傻瓜我们都一样受了伤却不投降相信付出会有代价代价只是一句傻瓜"

HAa.. cheers my fellow sillies....

5.10.07

Thursday, October 04, 2007

Went out earlier..
While on the way back home in the bus...
it was packed with ppl..
and i have a thing to observe pple...
found a seat at the back...planted my butt on it..
In Front of me was a grp of young ang mo students from some international school..
And one particular boy caught my attention, his an asian but bcoz of the accent i couldnt really figure out if his a korean or japanese..
But his sooo cute....
He was too engrossed in talking with his classmate n he actually misses his stop..
his expression was really cute..haha
Asian boy: "I think im suppose to alight here"(when he was saying tat the bus was already moving away)
His friend: "you can alight at the next n walk back"But its sooo far"
Asain boy: "shit i think i need to get a cab home" u think so..?
By then his other friends was talking away n not really bothered to answer him..
poor thing....
but the expression on him is juz soo cute.....

then this chinese lady and a ang mo was sitting beside them, that lady tried to talk to the ang mo kids but in the end she was ignored by them..haha

Then at the same row i was sitting was this stylo milo uncle wif that mohawk hair..the sunglass and all..wah reminds me of the taiwanese "guo lin feng"

How i wish i could capture photos of the kids and that stylo uncle but bcoz it was toooo packed i didnt manage to do it...

Another thing bummed into friend in town, why ah why im yet again told that im some rich guys' Gf..Why lah why!? Just bcoz i have been in town alot this week and it seems tat im like soo free or wat..

OH man..

recently i've heard alot of stuff

some says im havin that freaking designer attitude..

somes says im a crew (since dockey yrs ago)= to high maintances

some say im have a rich bf thats why it seems im soo free to look pretty pretty and shop shop shop..

wah bang my head...

i think sooner or later i really dont have market value..

Boohoo~

alrite im sooo tired..

think i wana slack n laze ard...

schools gona start again..hahaa

that means i will be richer..yay..but the countless of late nites..

argh! i dont wana think abt it.

tmr meeting up wif my bestie since she finally has a off day....

* Im happy dont know why and i dont think I need an explaination or a reason to be happy* Grins!

4.10.07